steph is right. we must love ourselves in order for us to love one another ( Read more... )

how am I supposed to start this ( Read more... )

Whoah so this journal has been just sitting here for so long I just read back some of my entries and I cant believe that was me like 9 months ago. As an update. I am currently residing in the wonderful beautiful city of Santa Barbara and working hard to become a professional photographer. I have met the greatest people anyone coul ask for and I've ( Read more... )

my hair is a dirty blonde color and i hope to get it platinum next week.I always thought boys were the weird one but I now realize that it's just me. I am in a state of solitude and it's ok. I'm extremely depressed but I'm not scared to be alone.
Yay!! Photo class is my life now.

So fernando is sitting next to me playing his johny cash tunes. I'm on the phone with mr. edward. The only two people that i can trust and have awesome conservations with. I'm hating everyone else at this moment. So i love these two boys. My best buddies. hmm..yes life is great just most of the people around me arent. but why talk shit..hmm jesus i ( Read more... )

I have learned so much in these couple of days and I have figured out that there is som much that I have to learn. I am nothing compared to the world and we are nothing if we don't mean anything to each other. I am so in love with a boy and I can't imagine my life without him.

My future is haunting me now. I'm terrified and scared of the decisions I make. So much is being expected of me and I'm not sure I could live up to those those expectations. I just feel like giving up... because nothing really matters in the end.

Today is my Kaybee's Birthday! The big 1 7!!
I love her and miss her so much. I hope you have an awesome birthday!
I FREKIN ♥ YOU! You freakin' doosh bag!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

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Hahaha... yah I don't know why I'm laughing!!
Oh yah I have internet now! yay
But yeah...
Yay kaybee is moving to ghetto ass South gate.
Yay we're undefeate(volleyball team)
Yay i'm not so mad at the sancho
yay i just ate cookies 'n cream ice cream
Yay there's no school tomorow
yay...okay i ran out of yays
aww..
tata

dammit I feel horrible I'm all sick and shit. AndI have a project due tomorow and I haven't started it, and to top it all, those stupid tests are getting on my nerves! I miss my man. He's not with me right now and I'm so glad to have him in my life. It's been a whole month already! I'm starting to love him, like really love him. And that scares me ( Read more... )