I haven't made a real update in a while. Just small friends only post here and there. Well... I was going to make this one friends only as well.... then i desided not to. I have nothing to hide. Pretty much I want to say that things are awesome right now. They could be better at home.... but they are ok. Everything is looking up and I'm so ( Read more... )

I have started to realize that things are going to be ok. They are going to be better then ok. They are going to be awesome.

Just a question... something ive noticed a lot latley.... why does everyone this the guys I date are gay? or I attract the girlie guys? Seriously.... is it really like that? It kinda bothers me. But not like oh im pissed at everyone that thinks that. Im not mad at all. I think its funny. Ok thats all. Im going to bed instead of getting ( Read more... )

I have a baby squirrel. He is black and tiny and cute! His name Nemo Nutnut.

I'm not keeping him. I will let him go when he is all grown up.

I just want to scream sometimes. It's gotten to the point where i dont care anymore. I cant do anything about it. Ive tried and only get pushed away. So whatever happens happens. I will deal with it then. But until then grow up and stop being such a wuss! I dont know if you will read this or not, but I dont care. Your not going to bring me ( Read more... )

Last night was a really good time. Good times with old friends and new. Still had a hard time getting my mind off things though. Today's been a rough day. I hope i make it through the weekend. At least im working a lot. I mean... things cant get worse....can they?? I need some serious friends time!!

Well... I have been doing ok. I wish it was better. But in the past few days that all changed. Now its back to how things were. Why do this to me? This is not fair. I am so angry about this. I hate your how you are!!! I dont want to deal with this all over again. Its stupid and uncalled for. Dont tell me about it. I dont want to know. ( Read more... )

If I said I miss you would you care?? If I said im sorry would you forgive me??

Ok... i think about things too much. I let myself get all worked up and I dont need to do that! I cant stop what im thinking and its making me sick to my stomach. I need to relax!!

I just wanna scream.

I'm sad. 2 copies of the cd... both gone. I know where they both are too. Ones somewhere in grand rapids and one is in Linsay's car. Its ok. I will just make another one.

Its been hard pretending.... but i think im doing a good job at it. =)