It's not fair
IT IS NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!

I didn't eat for 9 fucking days straight and I fucking lost 4 pounds.

I work so hard for this and yet I'm bloated, fat and ugly.

I got my period yesterday.
I mean,
WHAT THE FUCK?!

NO!
I don't deserve this ( Read more... )

What the fuck?

What happened to my day?
Where's my morning?
Where's my noon?
Where's the biggest part of my afternoon?

How the FUCK did it get 3PM?

Work is over in like 2 hours...
That's 6 hours of work that just...dissipated?

Rewind please.

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I don't understand myself ( Read more... )

I'm sick of this ( Read more... )

I was talking to a really close friend at work, who found out about my ED
(she guessed)
and this BITCH overheard the conversation and started bitching about how ridiculous it is and bla bla bla ( Read more... )

Like I said before...

Tried recovery (stupid fucking parents)
and failed (YAY!).

But I didn't completely 'fail' though.

I now weigh 116Lbs (EEEWWW!!)
and I was fucking 103Lbs!!!

I want to go back to 103Lbs :(

This makes me sad.

http://www.johannhari.com/archive/article.php?id=1298

This has to be too good to be true.

And yes,
I've failed recovery.
I don't feel bad about it at all, obviously,
but what Evelyn said really...lingers.

"I feel like this is mostly my fault.This has actually ( Read more... )

I hate the slow moments at work ( Read more... )

I talked to my best friend about my parents wanting to put me in recovery ( Read more... )

Parents found out about my ED ( Read more... )