To Those in the Know

[suave_thomas]

I keep dreaming and dreaming, and it's all memories. Or it was. Now there's added freakout elements which I can't stand. I don't like that I'm reliving those weeks with Amaris every time I sleep, but it's worse when I remember things I'd forgotten. Like...I found bits of wood in that hole underneath the abandoned house. The place she moved me

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[in_spectre_mors]

I'm grateful too, Thomas. So very grateful.

I'm so sorry the nightmares still haunt you. Those things... they're so awful. I hate that they ever happened to you. It's disgusting and horrible and I can't put into words how much I loathe it. I know how much it must hurt you to see it happen to James and I, even if only in dreams. I wish so much it would just stop.

[suave_thomas]

They are awful things. They usually seem like things that happened to someone else. Now the thought of eating wood and wallpaper seems totally fucking ludicrous. But at that point, I really would have eaten anything. Which is obvious... And seeing you and tiny James like that too, is just so far beyond fucked up.

I wish it would stop too. Maybe I should get one of those lobotomies!

[in_spectre_mors]

I suppose it would, in a film or something... but having experienced deep hunger myself, I know that it gets to the point where the ludicrous eventually seems to become the tenable. Not that I think I ever reached the point that you did, with that. My poor, dear love...

The trouble with lobotomies is that they make your eye droop. A bit like Paris Hilton. Maybe that's telling us something...?

[suave_thomas]

You dealt with it for longer, and I am not well pleased about that. And I hate to think you got anywhere near the point where the ludicrous seemed tenable. Lucian did his weird metabolism maths when I was in hospital, and he told me that with my body the way it was, by the end it was like my body had gone for 35 days or more without food. Well, I had a muffin... And the other...bits that came right back up.

Oh dear God, I wouldn't be surprised. And I don't want to be a Paris-twin. That's not hot.

[demon_svetlana]

You poor thing, Thomas. It sucks to have so many powers, and to not be able to help with something as simple as bad dreams :(

[suave_thomas]

You do though. I didn't have them when I spent the night with you.

:)

[demon_svetlana]

Awww, yay! I have magic snuggles! :D

[suave_thomas]

You do, darling Svetlana!

I'm at Peter's. He says if you want to come over, he'd like to see you. Aly says the same thing.

[empress_tasha]

Recurring dreams are the worst. It's bollocks that you have to deal with that, damn right. And yeah... a lot of stuff sucks right now. We're getting hammered. Again. Argh. God I wish you could find peace in your sleep. But I'm glad that you do have places and people in which to find peace when you're awake.

[suave_thomas]

When I'm awake, things are alright. I'm at your house!! Which is fun! And my family are so fucking amazing, I can't even express it. And Spectre and James are safe and not starving to death in a hole. And all of that is significantly better than nothing.

[empress_tasha]

The waking world does have a lot to offer the Thomas. That makes me so happy, you know. Seeing things make you happy again... it's the best thing. Undisturbed sleep will come, I'm sure. These things won't cling on forever.

[suave_thomas]

No, they won't. Those damn wrist cuffs came off eventually. Dead or no, they're gone. The dreams will follow.

In the meantime, at least I can dance while I get over the trauma. If I were still alive, I hardly think I'd be dancing yet, or any time soon.

[slinkster_ghoul]

Oh hell, nightmares are shit.

At least the wood wasn't trying to eat you. I've had dreams like that. Only not wood. Hands. Not that hands have mouths. But dreams don't make sense. Um. The only thing I found really helps is not lying in bed thinking about it before you sleep, which it unhelpful. Oh and having someone there when you wake up, but you've probably already got that down.

I don't have nearly as many nightmares as I used to, though. Tasha's right in that they don't hang around forever. Not as frequently anyway. That's something.

[suave_thomas]

They are indeed.

Dear God...I wouldn't appreciate having dreams I'm being eaten by the inedible things I'm desperately trying to eat, no... You poor thing. Though I have to say, I'm usually not thinking about it when I go to sleep. Usually I'm thinking "MmmmSpectre" because...well..because of all the sex. And then I sleep and there it is. But when I wake up, you're right. He's there. And that is worth a hell of a lot.

Thank you, Stephie. So much. Would you like to go running again?

[slinkster_ghoul]

Ooh, running. Yeah, Icarus is getting fat and lazy, we should start running again.

[suave_thomas]

I would like it very much. It does a lot to clear my head. As does being with you.