First...I didn't pay my phone bill again, so good luck trying to get a hold of me ( Read more... )

Once again I seem to be torturing myself with my memories.  Someday I'll be dead and in heaven and my memories won't matter ( Read more... )

I tried calling Kathy yesterday.  Erin's phone was busy and Mike told me he didn't know what's going on ( Read more... )

This is why God is funny.  At MNG tonight, we worshiped and we kind of prayed.  I felt like crap all night because Steve F. was talking about losing friends in the body like when people decide to walk away.  My mind wandered and just put me in a funk most of the night ( Read more... )

I want to challenge all of you (especially the three people that I talked with last night) to not let me hide from my hurt any more.  I don't know what really to do,  or how exactly you all can help, but if and when you see me being closed off, don't let me be.  Be like Mike and force me to look at what I don't want to see.

Looking inside my self ( Read more... )

I jsut Realized that it's Saturday already.  This week flew by.

This is what I did.

Sunday--Went to Spring Arbor study.  It was a good time and we talked about comitment.  Then Mike and I talked at his place for a while.  and by talked I mean we sword faught and he beat me  a lot.  Sara called me and we talked, then Mike, Erin and I talked after ( Read more... )

I figured out a Back way into AIM.  SO now I can be one of "thoes guys ( Read more... )

I don't know what the deal is.  I tried to use AIM at mikes house last night.  and it worked.  BUT when I try to log in at home, nothing.  all  I get is a note that says "you suck"  okay it doesn't say that in exact words, but it does say that i am unable to sign in.

Booo  AIM

Why do I do things that torture my spirit?

Why do I look for things that I know will make me upset?

Why can't I just stay content being at peace with God and my body?

Why do I purposely search out for things that will cut me deeper and deeper (metaphorically that is)?

I went to the Eryndor forum today.  I don't know why I did though, ( Read more... )

After reading the comments that you kids posted, I'm going to stay single until God tells me otherwise.  During which time, I will hopefully be engaging more with the men of faith in my life and seeking God on what it means to be "a man of God" like my name entails ( Read more... )