mini-ficlet! No miniaturization or singing this time.

[stoney321]

I remembered that I used to try to write stuff.  Stuff that didn't involve making fun of other things.  So I'm a bit rusty, but I watched "Apocolypse, Nowish" last night and finally got it.  I finally got Connor, and he broke my heart a little.  I don't feel that irritation (get out, get out GET OUT!) like I did before.

Many thanks to crazydiamondsue for looking

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[cityphonelines]

I have Connor issues.

That being said, whoa. Hurt my heart, why don't you? I liked the take you did on the lil Steven stuff. I see fics where he's already super hunter destroy boy. I liked the 'learning period.'

Damn good. And without spontaneous choreography and lyric knowing.

[stoney321]

I had those same issues. Then I remembered that he was a baby who grew up in hell. And Emily is sitting here with me all teeny and soft and nice. And I thought about the little throwaway line of Connor's when he is tracking Fred after Fred figures Jasmine out. When Connor says he was "really good at tracking" because Holtz tied him up and left him places. *thud*

Really, it was the tear on his cheek when Cordy kisses him that finally did me in. When that aired? EEEWWWWWW. Now? I feel for the kid.

Thanks for commenting. Bet not many do. I think there is a lot of Connor hate out there.

[cityphonelines]

There may be Connor hate, but there is Stoney luvlove.

Cordy/Connor still squicks me. Because she was his mother-type, because she was older, because it wasn't really her, because to me Connor used her to hurt Angel and then made it about her, because of what he did for her (killing the girl), etc. Unhealthy.

[stoney321]

You know, up until last night I would have been nodding my head with everything you said. I watched "Spin the Bottle" with the commentary and listened to Joss talk about Connor being confused with the prostitute he rescued in the alley. how desperate he must have been to accept the touch she was offering, you know? And then earlier with the drug dealer, how excited he got by thinking she liked him?

I don't think he sees Cordy as anything but a beautiful older woman who is caring and interested in him. I think his biology drives him first, and his want of her is fueled by his dad, not in spite of it.

This ficlet is before the killing of the girl during the Jasmine cycle, and I just see the hurt kid in his eyes at this point. And I agree that it isn't Cordy when they are doonit.

So far only you love me enough to look beyond the Connor clicky-click. But for that I will make you virtual soup and grilled cheese sammiches. (pukey or nose sick?)

[likeadeuce]

yay -- I won't get to read this right away b/c I'm in the middle of a lot of crap, but I'll bookmark and read soon.

am not wild about canon Connor but I LOOOOVE Connorfic. I also dug the hell out of Holtz as a character -- could I have used a little (lot) more Holtz, and a little (lot) less Groosalugg in season 3? let me think about that for 5 seconds. not.

[stoney321]

Groo got old FAST. But I LOVED Holtz. What a terrific character. And natch I'm thinking of his interaction with Wesley. As I am sure you are as well. Next ficlet is the love scene that began in your thread... I NEED that bit of loving/angst.

[likeadeuce]

I have very little love for season 3, overall -- I'd be hard pressed to name a single episode I like from start to finish; maybe "Loyalty" & "billy". But there are so many flashes of lovely potential. and just about everything with Holtz or (duh) Wes. . . one of the fun things about watching eps out of order as I've been doing lately -- going from Wes trying to persuade Holtz of the futility of vengeance in "Loyalty" to Wes saying "Vengeance? Sounds good!" to Fred in supersymmetry -- sounding almost perky and meaning it.

I'm in computer lab hell now, but I'm printing a bunch of fic, including yours and hightailing it to a coffee shop. can't wait to see the Wes/Fred loving!

[stoney321]

Oh, thanks honey. I just needed something more grownup than wee vamps singing in 4/4 time. *eg*

<-- Vinnie is sick, so feel the healing Icon love!

[stoney321]

Thank you, and the errors have been fixed.

I think (if it WAS her, and I don't think so) Cordy wants to be there for him in a way no one ever had. She had talked to Angel about loving him, but knowing the evil he had done while a higher being made it impossible for them to be together. Maybe she was privvy to the hell Steven suffered at the hands of Holtz and wanted to give him love in the way she could.

And to, you know, bring about Jasmine. I think Cordy was still in there for a bit, but was slowly pushed out entirely by the Jasmine-God mother being who-ze-whats-it. I say that because of the "oh, shit" face she makes the morning after.

*makes soupy mess on your shoes*

[leeannaray]

I've never felt the dislike of Connor that a lot of people seem to. His behavior always struck me as being perfectly in character, considering his background. After all he was raised in a dimension where there was only one other human. And I always believed that some of Holtz's hatred of Angel must have affected the way he treated Connor.

That being said, I never thought Joss fleshed out Connor's character enough. But you've done an admirable job of it, with this piece.

[stoney321]

Thanks!

Signed, Admiral Stoney.

(oh, ADMIRABLE. Gotcha.) And I wish they had been better able to explore Connor instead of sticking him in there and not doing anything with him. Boo, M.E.!!