mini-ficlet! No miniaturization or singing this time.

[stoney321]

I remembered that I used to try to write stuff.  Stuff that didn't involve making fun of other things.  So I'm a bit rusty, but I watched "Apocolypse, Nowish" last night and finally got it.  I finally got Connor, and he broke my heart a little.  I don't feel that irritation (get out, get out GET OUT!) like I did before.

Many thanks to crazydiamondsue for looking

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[cityphonelines]

I have Connor issues.

That being said, whoa. Hurt my heart, why don't you? I liked the take you did on the lil Steven stuff. I see fics where he's already super hunter destroy boy. I liked the 'learning period.'

Damn good. And without spontaneous choreography and lyric knowing.

[stoney321]

I had those same issues. Then I remembered that he was a baby who grew up in hell. And Emily is sitting here with me all teeny and soft and nice. And I thought about the little throwaway line of Connor's when he is tracking Fred after Fred figures Jasmine out. When Connor says he was "really good at tracking" because Holtz tied him up and left him places. *thud*

Really, it was the tear on his cheek when Cordy kisses him that finally did me in. When that aired? EEEWWWWWW. Now? I feel for the kid.

Thanks for commenting. Bet not many do. I think there is a lot of Connor hate out there.

[cityphonelines]

There may be Connor hate, but there is Stoney luvlove.

Cordy/Connor still squicks me. Because she was his mother-type, because she was older, because it wasn't really her, because to me Connor used her to hurt Angel and then made it about her, because of what he did for her (killing the girl), etc. Unhealthy.

[stoney321]

You know, up until last night I would have been nodding my head with everything you said. I watched "Spin the Bottle" with the commentary and listened to Joss talk about Connor being confused with the prostitute he rescued in the alley. how desperate he must have been to accept the touch she was offering, you know? And then earlier with the drug dealer, how excited he got by thinking she liked him?

I don't think he sees Cordy as anything but a beautiful older woman who is caring and interested in him. I think his biology drives him first, and his want of her is fueled by his dad, not in spite of it.

This ficlet is before the killing of the girl during the Jasmine cycle, and I just see the hurt kid in his eyes at this point. And I agree that it isn't Cordy when they are doonit.

So far only you love me enough to look beyond the Connor clicky-click. But for that I will make you virtual soup and grilled cheese sammiches. (pukey or nose sick?)

[cityphonelines]

Nose and head. Mmmm... grilled cheese. Of course, I live in the part of Texas where people say: 'sangwiches'.

I see you on the biology thing. My squick comes from the first time I watched the season and I didn't know she was 'Not-Cordy' and it never passed.

Connor was just a poorly explored character, I think.

[stoney321]

S4 was so herky-jerky with a lot of things. I think it should have been stretched out to 2 seasons, but what are you gonna do with Charisma getting preggers like that? She was just all tits and belly like a fertility goddess.

[cityphonelines]

AtS 4 and BtVS 6 just ran around all willy-nilly.

The pregnacy thing? Fine, I get it.

But Jasmine? No. Mandy sing-age notwithstanding. S4 had too many plot devices bouncing around. If it wasn't for the Angelus stuff, the Scruffy!Wes and Faith, I may have fled.