The seed of one contained in the other

[stolen_tea]

I think I've managed to hit a point where I no longer need to push myself to prove to myself that I can push myself, at least in certain domains. It's refreshing and calming. I can detect a bit of the opposite impulse - "I will choose not to push myself because I want to demonstrate that I don't have to push myself" - but not very much. Mostly,

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[bloodstones]

My situation is a little different, but I have that debate about the next day all the time now. I adore pushing myself. I knocked 4 minutes off of how long it takes me to run a mile in 9 months. Then I got horribly ill and couldn't go to the gym for several months. Now that I'm back it is killing me to pace myself, and to occasionally skip the gym, so that I don't just make myself sick again. I'm doing it, because I can't afford to lose the next day every time I work out, but I still hate it.