i got that from this book i read like 2 years ago. for some reason it stayed with me. and now i think i can understand it. i was starting to feel the huge weight that was placed on me, and it was really heavy. but i got used to it and kept walking down that road of self discovery. and it seems bout a mile after this initial weight was placed on me ( Read more... )

okay, i know im like 50 years too late to say this but happy belated b-day vida! 19 is such a great number and 20 will be too when i get there too. and when are you seeing the green lady again? im trying to book a ticket now so i may enjoy her witchiness myself. oh yeah, hi again to all you livejournalers out there who think i died or something. ( Read more... )

* people who are under the age of 17 should not read this post ( Read more... )

the webster definition of responsible is being "able to answer for one's conduct and obligations." i try my hardest to do just that, but it never seems to work out the way i want it to. and i think that im a horrible person for that. im a bum, whose only source of income now is his parents. i go to school, but thats only because i had to. im now a ( Read more... )

so here is the big day. im now 19. good god, i feel the power!!!!lol. well, as a sign of peace my dad has decided to get me a new car. how great is he?! probably one of the greatest dads in the world. and im not just saying that because of the car, although it was a nice incentive.

this week is really crazy, im getting this feeling of extreme need and want. so i go to this place to get my fix, and then i finally think about it. i have a problem. and going cold turkey is not an option. at first i was ready to give it up and go cold turkey. the feeling of need is still there, almost too strong to be qieted with one dose. so how ( Read more... )

by him, i mean my brother. with him, he thinks that stregth should be able t o solve anything; ie: hes stronger than me+ he has more power in the household. well, that equation is fundamentally wrong. it matters not who is stringer, but who is the more manipulative, cunning , and dare i say it, down right dirty. and god knows how i loathe these ( Read more... )

Vida, your party was so cool. my mom said thanx for the food too! so at your party i took a time out to go outside and chill for a second and smoke with my good friends jessyca(sosorry if i spelled it wrong) and then marissa, which was so fun. wow, im up insanely early

okay, so as some of you may have heard, my father came home frinday evening. it was such a joyous ocassion since i had not seen him in a good while( i didnt get the chance to see him off when he went back to germany.) so of course i was happy. but in the back of my mind i couldnt help but think. the trounle is gonna start in like less than a week. ( Read more... )

my dads home for good