surrender...Im not ok but it obviously doesnt matter.

[staryeyed19]

If anyone is wondering why I am the way that I am right now its because Im so totally SICK of my LIFE. I have almost no ambition anymore...no drive...NOTHING....anyone I talk to I just seem to be a pest or a bother...and nothing I do can fix ANYTHING.....I really am still despising my life right now...despite all Im trying to do to fix things and

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[larsonsier]

You know that's a lie. You're not an annoyance nor a bother. You can be a great friend. And you usually are, but you never make any effort to initiate interactions. That's all I said. If I thought you weren't a good person, I wouldn't be your friend. Nor would I make any attempt to make things better or fix any sort of problem we might have. Stop beating yourself up. Dwelling on your problems is not going to help anything. Take some time out, and when you're feeling better, we'll talk. You can be a bit over-sensitive sometimes. We all are. Just keep it in mind and know I'm not out just to hurt you or put you down, okay? If I didn't consider you a friend, I never would have said a word or ever even told you why I was upset, okay? Please stop beating yourself up.

[hotsteetcola]

I was going to have a totally different reply to this, but then I see that something happened between you and Brandon that set this off. Look Steph, I've told you previously that I don't think you're a bother or a pain, that still stands. I know that you care a lot about people, that's why I went to you for those hugs. You can't give up on yourself, that's the ultimate failure. You may not be sure of what you want, hardly anyone does, but just keep working on small important goals until you figure out the big ones, then work towards those. You need motivation? How working toward gaining some so then you can pull yourself out of this mess. If you let us, we can help you along, but there are some really hard and cruel things in life we must first tell ourselves is worth conquering before anything else can be done. You can't have this "no hope" business...I'm not debating that you're not justified in being sad right now--we all understand you have a lot going on that you need to sort out--but if you think your life will suck

[tiny_g]

o hunny, please stop beating yourself up. we are all here for you and we all love you.