surrender...Im not ok but it obviously doesnt matter.
If anyone is wondering why I am the way that I am right now its because Im so totally SICK of my LIFE. I have almost no ambition anymore...no drive...NOTHING....anyone I talk to I just seem to be a pest or a bother...and nothing I do can fix ANYTHING.....I really am still despising my life right now...despite all Im trying to do to fix things and no matter how much I think might have gotten fixed Im just fooling myself. I should know theres no hope of me being happy and theres also no hope of anything ever working out for me. I dont know why I ever get my hopes up about anything....or why I think I deserve friends. I'll stop annoying all of you since that seems to be all Im good for anymore...just to be an annoyance...someone who doesnt give to shits about anyone obviously...Im a horrible person and I just hate my life. just leave me alone and you'll be alot happier and you'll forget all about me...everyone else does....