I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, wondering what exactly it is that I'm going to do with my life. I love theatre, but I don't think stage managing is quite the right fit for me... I think company management and administration is more my thing. With that being said, I don't honestly know how long I'm going to want to stay in this field. I ( Read more... )

For some reason, I have a slightly overwhelming desire to make a list of things to do before I die. This is the beginning of that list... more to come. Things listed are in no particular order ( Read more... )

Dear boy ( Read more... )

I don't know why I even try anymore. I fuck everything up anyways, so what's the point? I can't fucking stand it. It's like I instinctively keep myself from being happy. I'll never understand it. Fuck this. Fuck everything.

Not knowing has to be one of the worst feelings in the world. Does he like me the way that I like him, or am I wasting my time? I can read most people like books, but this one's above my reading level... beyond my comprehension.

I was never one for guessing games.

I can't seem to do anything right lately. It feels like the world is collapsing all around me, and I have nowhere to run. I hate it when I get like this... I want to say "fuck the world" and sleep for days. Curl up and disappear into thin air. Watch myself from the outside. Why am I the way I am? I hate it, yet I do nothing to change it. If ( Read more... )

My body hates me. 2 weeks before my show goes up, I get mono. This wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't doing so damn much for the show and I didn't need it to get into college... but I am and I do. Oh, but it gets better! Last night at rehearsal I'm talking to one of my actors and then my leg starts itching. I pull up my pant leg and I'm broken out ( Read more... )

Wow.  It's been forever and a day since I've updated this damn thing.  A lot has happened in the last 2 months.

• Back to school- thus far, it pretty much sucks. The only real perks this year are getting out early for lunch and seeing the looks of panic on the faces of freshmen when you boss them around or yell at them.
• Broke up with the boy.  It ( Read more... )

     I go back to school tomorrow- summer is officially over.  Hooray for only having one more year of the high school drama bullshit left.  "Fuck You" for still having to deal with that year of high school drama bullshit.  I used to feel bad about not being nicer to people at school... then I realized that they hate me anyways, so it doesn't ( Read more... )

I have a whopping headache right now... I need drugs.  No, not that kind of drugs- Aleve or something.  Perhaps I'll down some NyQuil?  I'm sooo out of it right now.  Being at the theatre almost every day this summer is beginning to take its toll on me.  In the last week, I think I've only conversed with like 3 non-theatre people (excluding my ( Read more... )