I came home early this morning after havein a pimp time with jenni and aaron, but i felt really sick like something was wrong, i walked into my room and there was nirvana barely able to push herself through the cedar and i knew tonight was her last night. i took her outa her cage and made a little bed in a plastic shoebox sized container. it was so ( Read more... )

okay after spending two hours cleaning the entire house, i decided i should just write in here and stop doing other things to distract my mind from my thoughts. okay. i am on another semi lonely kick. yeah i am back to feeling utterly lonely and like i will never be pretty enough for someone to enjoy me, and want to be with me. i am not lookin for ( Read more... )

my breakdown time is officially over and i feel i have dived back into my metal roots once agian, after going and seeing mushroomhead last night i feel almost refreshed. it was A fucking MAZING!! i had the fucking time of my life, although my body maybe paying way to much for it now i still roxed my little heart out and enjoyed it throughly. i was ( Read more... )

i dont know whats goin on with me once agian in my own life. i keep feeling depressed and needy and finding the first person that will fill the sudden or not so sudden void in my life. how pathetic i am sure u are thinking and here myself i am thinking the same thing. i just wanna forget it and not talk or think about it, but with people asking ( Read more... )

Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||| 26% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 58% Type 3 Image Focus || 10% Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Type 5 Detachment |||||| 26% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||| ( Read more... )

last night... well lets actually start with the morning i went to work and was just so close to puttin in my two weeks notice it was like crazy i was just not in a good mood, but i think i am feeling better now and everything i mean there is always pain in the kidney area but i just felt like really icky. so yeah now to last night i call charlie, ( Read more... )

terry came down this weekend, me and julie picked him up and it was just friggin awesome and now that we have taken him back today i am so so so sad right now. it took everything i had to not cry when i left. but he is now gone and will be back agian i am sure. i am actually going to go and stay with him for like three days and just hang it will be ( Read more... )

the constant thought of the last moment you spent with that person that you just cant forget, its starting to annoy the hell outa me. i am not suppose to fall for a friend that i just have fun with!! right? setting yourself up for disappointment and knowing it just isnt right but it is so what i am doin. i feel like idk i just keep thinking about ( Read more... )

my computer had a virus and we just go it back..damn i musta messed this damn thing up. ne whos i have been hangin out like crazy with pat staying till like five in the morning and stuff. i met a guy. mike he is like a jerk, an asshole, cute lotsa tatoos.. you know just my type. he is so much fun and everything with him is just amazing. we aren't ( Read more... )

clerks is on 44 thats awesome. me and jenni just kinda chilled out last night took these pills i have and drank smirnof and boones farm..mmm cheap and yummy. and mixed with these pills it was such an awesome feeling and it put me to sleep well and i woke up feeling all light headed and stuff. it was nice.i made some new bracelets and they are super ( Read more... )