well wow. i hate this. i always get really content in the place i am right before i am about to leave it. things with alli have FINALLY thawed out and we love each other again. though we did get in a punching fight at the hotcake house this morning ( Read more... )

man, i don't know whats up with me these days, but something has got to give. i'm just so blank and energiless all the time. I cant even like have normal interactions with people because i get so withdrawn ( Read more... )

i am so content. and i finally feel like i can call this house my home. unfortunatly i've got to move in a month and a half. i know it will be awesome living in the duplex, i don't doubt it, but i am sort of sick of moving about all the time ( Read more... )

i am so full of anger i can barely keep hold of myself. i am so fucking sick of this bullshit fucking job. i seriously want to smack someone across the forhead. why do i not get any fucking say ( Read more... )

I'm learning more and more that you have to find happiness in the little things. i think that's what gets lost when growing up. the kids are always asking me the greatest questions like, "how did they get the diving boards in this building?" "how did you get that scratch on your arm?" so fucking random, but they want to know everything! and ( Read more... )

well. i am hungover. and about to go babysit... it should be a great combination for the next five hours, i'm sure ( Read more... )

"It doesn't matter what I want ( Read more... )

Seeing lauren again last night felt so good. I miss seeing her all the time but i guess we'll be living together soon enough anyway. I always forget how summer is. It's not always as sweet and relaxing as it sounds. at all. too much work, not enough days off to see people... everyone is scattered around. Hanging out with kids all day makes me ( Read more... )

i need to stop constructing so many fantasy superpeople in my head.

actually just one superperson.

they're no longer becomming mortal.

wierd.