i've been listening to austin lucas a lot recently. something resonates. especially when he's singing with chuck regan for some reason ( Read more... )

they were searching desperately for some facet of death some blanket for the cold screaming out for salvation honesty some bit of truth they could sink their teeth into all of them sinking one by one into this unavoidable abyss some by choice others by only choice still others feel they lost their footing and simply slipped into some vague image of ( Read more... )

torn and scattered no more substantial damage than dehydration i will simply drink life s essence and be just fine as always be just fine just(fi)in(e) and soon will tighten my laces and walk a little straighter and stand a little taller refusing to waller in the filth of the left behind sure they meant well but they gave up and i m not there just

when we all but sacrifice our tongue and torso to the torrent embodiment of the underbelly all and nothing is lost complete middle ground of losing ones self finding meaning in the void vague images and dreams blur themselves and peace is found but only a piece of what once was will ever remain it is time to stop this train

i bide false hope
on self proclaimed
plastic laurels
something to hold
my belt
at its buckle
before i simply
fall
back
ward
into the inward
into the (i wish it were)
unknown
but known
too well
insecurities and failures
i ll call my own
until i find
my own
finger
to point

there is a certain sense of urgency and necessity in maintaining one s 'self ( Read more... )

fighting the sleep
sleep that gives
only false
promises
of warding anxiety
providing rest
some hope
of some
thing better
tomorrow

it has
embedded it
self
within my
chest

some one
give me
some thing
sharp

for tis better
to enter
heaven mamed
than not
to enter

"Sin has made the foundation of our thinking unpredictable, uncontrollable and irrational."
"The New Testament brings us right down to this one issue - if sin rules in me, God's life in me will be killed; if God rules in me, sin will be killed"
-Oswald Chambers

Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907 ( Read more... )

looking for some sense of home. what that means. why 'home' of years past is no longer home... it wasn't home when i was. i pray that if a sin it be to rest in the lull of innner consciousness, edge of the void... someone breaks me out.