My mom just straight up told me her biggest worry in life is that I will grow old alone because I am not attractive. Oh and that she frets about this every night before she goes to bed. Now she isn't talking to me because I told her to fuck off. This would not be a problem if I was not in her her house right now, and both of us are insomniacs who ( Read more... )

 So does anyone know where I can find a nice and funny woman (or a guy, but the chances I'll be attracted to him are sooo low that I've given up bothering when it comes to my once every so often attraction to males) who is into at least SOME of my fandoms and is willing to enjoy them with me? I think this will be my source of angst FOREVER ( Read more... )

Ok, backstory first. For the backstory I'm just going to copy pasta a tumblr entry I made on the topic ( Read more... )

 A friend asked me to go with her to shabbat services yesterday. I said "sure, I'll go" even though I always sit there fidgeting feeling weirdly out of place when I know I should feel fine. I spend so much time studying and analyzing my Jewishness and yet when I am in an actual Jewish place doing Jewish things all I can think is 'when will this be ( Read more... )

 So, my parents have found a buyer for my Nana's apartment ( Read more... )

 After years and years of lurking about in hundreds of fandoms, I actually want to participate in one. Of course that would entail being a bit less of a lazy bum than I currently am. This is quite the conundrum. 

"I love you"
"I love you too, Nana."
"How Much?"
"So much, I love you as much as you love me. Always."
"Good. I love you."

The funeral is on Monday. We're sitting Shiva at my parent's house on Long Island. Give me a call if you want to go to either.

Nana's in the hospital again. I wish I'll be able to visit her more often, but classes are starting this week. I'm actually a bit scared. Over the past year I've fallen out of the academic mode, and now this week I leap into my Masters program head first. Luckily the class I care about the most (The Jews of Eastern Europe) is on hiatus for two more ( Read more... )

It's been ages since the last time I posted here ( Read more... )

So I think I'm leaving this Kibbutz. Hell I may be leaving Israel outright ( Read more... )