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Apr 23, 2009 16:02

I weighed myself this morning and I’m down another pound and a half, but I have to maintain that this weekend while I’m in Vienna in order to add it to my “pie” chart. (No, I could not resist the pun ( Read more... )

therapy, relationship, annoyances, chris, weight loss, david, disappointment, travel, fat, counseling

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letmeburyem April 23 2009, 15:32:30 UTC
Now wait a minute. Just wait.

He wants your open relationship to ONLY be open for him? ARE YOU SERIOUS? How is that remotely fair? Screw fair, how does that show that he has any respect for you at all?

And you don't want to be cruel to him? How exactly would you describe what this is doing to you? It's not exactly kind.

I could probably rewrite this comment so it sounded a bit kindler and gentler, but I won't. You need to stop and take a breath and realize exactly what it is you're saying here, and the position you are in. This is worse than just having low self esteem, you're acting as though you see no value in yourself at all.

It's time for that to stop, Kate. Losing weight won't stop it- you need to have it click in your head that you're worthwhile. You need to accept that you're worth something.

If I sound pissed, it's because I am.

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squeakywheel April 23 2009, 15:36:49 UTC
No, it's open for both of us for sex. I want it open for dating, as in, basically, finding a replacement for him. I want him to know that I'm looking for someone who can give me the things that I want since he isn't willing to.

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adiasplat April 23 2009, 16:25:08 UTC
Losing weight isn't going to change any of this stuff in your head. And until this stuff changes, you're going to continue to set yourself up with people who are going to continue to treat you like crap. If it's not your weight, it'll be something else that they'll pick at and you'll let them because you completely define your self worth based on what someone else (that you've idolized) thinks. Until your self worth is based on what you think, life is going to be a constant re-run.

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posteverything April 25 2009, 05:06:07 UTC
I was thinking about you since your last post about him and the sets of wishes that he's having. Well, I'm glad that you did what you did. I can imagine how difficult this situation must be: words aren't really doing justice to the subtle nuisances that make up you and Chris' interpersonal dynamic. :) We're just flies on the wall, really.

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