tonight sucked.

so i'm reading this book (The Lovely Bones) and it begins "My name was Salmon, like the fish; first name, Susie. I was fourteen when I was murdered on December 6, 1973." the first chapter is about how she was raped by her neighbor and then murdered and idk i can't help but think that could have been me.

fucking depressing.

♥

uh huh so i have this crazy cool boyfriend and i ♥him hardcore. don't be mad. =]

today was nelson's birthday!! woot for turning 17 and all that good stuff that comes w.it lol. uhm. i went to his house at like, two and we rented "Aladdin" which was awesome =] and then we hung out and talked and stuff. it was great, i like spending time w.him..

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i miss joey and laura who called me the other day actually. hmmm.. i should probably call her back eh? lol =]

alex got back from florida two days ago so we hung out last night!! woot i missed her. she got me stuff which is pretty cool =] a new necklace that has a "B" on it, and a dolphin!! lol. and a keychain with a dolphin and then i got a ( Read more... )

so i should definately be sleeping right now, but i can't. =[

today was awesomee.. first off, i got my headliner replaced.. =] yay! then i went to nelson's birthday party. it was cool. met jake, jeff, his parents, & his sister who, by the way is adorable.. =] jesse& luke were there too. we had cake &they all gave him their presents. but i'm gna ( Read more... )

I'm scared of everything.
I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am..
but most of all, I'm scared of walking away and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way i feel when i'm with you

i haven't felt this way in ages and last time i did i lost out hardcore. we dated for two months (i met him a week before he asked me ( Read more... )

yesterday was laura's would be eighteenth birthday.

joey came with me this morning to go to her grave and see it. i'm glad she came. it's hard to realize, hey, she's not eighteen. she never will be. it kind of puts things in perspective. we're not invincible so live like you'll die tomorrow ( Read more... )

mmm totally loving making new friends. =]

can we say crazy fun? ♥ i can.

mark's off getting trashed at the moment at this college party. i'm not really feeling good with that =\ but i can't really talk at the moment so. yup. keepin mouth shut.

so i have a new icon. "i'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together." and it's ( Read more... )

...i realized mark has no idea why i moved here. not one person i still talk to knows the story from start to finish except kayla(my sister). the one person who knows is gareth.

i feel like i'm keeping something from the world. it's not like i can't or won't tell it, i just don't want people to pity me. i despise being pitied above all else.

so today=totally effing awesome!

woke up at ten-ish but im a lazy fc_k so i didn't start doing anything to get ready until like, eleven. so then i got rdy nd dropped off something with mark then went to work for twelve - three; not bad ( Read more... )

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get ( Read more... )