the sensation of a lot of flesh, for denugis

[summergen_mod]

Title: the sensation of a lot of flesh
Recipient: de_nugis
Rating: M
Warnings: suicide/suicidal thoughts or some close metaphorical approximation thereof; non-sexual noncon messing with other people’s bodies
Wordcount: 6317

Summary: “Effigies let you study or act upon someone with impunity. They are good for practice.” (Jenny Holzer)
Author’s note: Thanks

Comments

[tifaching]

This was amazing! The twist of Sam being replicated took me completely by surprise and I love that so much. So beautifully done.

[themegalosaurus]

Thank you for reading and commenting! I'm glad I could surprise you 🙂

[borgmama1of5]

Oh wow!!!

What a twist--totally unexpected and yet completely logical...and you perfectly conveyed Sam's reaction his person being violated yet again...and why he will stay with Dean anyway.

Amazing story!

[themegalosaurus]

I'm glad the twist felt unexpected. It was definitely where the story originated for me. And I will never get bored writing about Sam and his relationship to his body. Thanks for reading!!

[monicawoe]

Oh that was chilling! Poor Sam and his constant violations of autonomy and self. I was excited by the return of soulless!Sam, ever the badass even whilst dying.
This was so skillfully done, thank you <3

[themegalosaurus]

I was delighted to have the chance to write soulless so I'm glad you enjoyed him!! And thanks for all the nice words about the fic

[lira_chimera]

Way too real. Thank you.

[themegalosaurus]

Real is a big compliment, thank you!

[de_nugis]

This is MAGNIFICENT. (And, yes, I totally know who you are.) I've never been able to write a story set in this universe -- the canon universe -- in which "love" has the meaning it's had since Gadreel used Sam's brain and vocal apparatus to attribute it to Dean, and in which the characters just have to live with that.

Dean is exactly the person that Sam thought he was; the same person that he has always been. Chills

[themegalosaurus]

I'm really glad you liked this (and only sorry that I was so transparently obvious in my identity, ahahaha - that "flat", omg, after I carefully Americanised all my spellings!). Your prompts were so tasty that my first version of this was much more expansive but a 20k fic ended up being an impossible target so it's a bit telescoped down from what it once was. But sometimes that's a good thing. I'm glad you enjoyed the Sam and Cas that I managed to squeeze in there and thank you for kindly picking the hopeful parts in a not very summery fic!