I just called Buddy and conned him into subbing for me so I could go to dinner with my family for Marie's birthday. I was so afraid that I wasn't going to be able to find someone to cover for me. Buddy, you're a lifesaver ( Read more... )

I love my sister Ashley with everything that I am.
And that is all anyone needs to know.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I went away. I come to the conclusion that some people would be very, very sad and their lives would be harder for a time, and then everything would be back to normal. The world would be just as wonderful and just as terrible as it is right now. And the world does stop for a second when someone dies. ( Read more... )

I don't even know what I feel at this moment. Marching band is over, officially, and band banquet was fantastic. I exploded with joy for Sam when Rees named him MVP. I can't think of anyone who deserves it more than he does ( Read more... )

I'm drinking a home-made double espresso latte in hopes that I can regain consciousness soon. I feel like a zombie. I stayed up the entirety of last night with Sam, first talking to him online, and then going over to his house to draw pictures of him while he was doing his homework and sit on him when he gave up and tried to fall asleep on the ( Read more... )

I'm only mildly discontent. There are a lot of things going right. For example, I ran to the mall today and picked out a band banquet/Christmas/New Year's Eve dress that I think will serve me well and it didnt cost me as much as I thought it would. My mom is going to be happy that I've bought a dress instead of a nice collared shirt and pants, too ( Read more... )

My head is pounding. I feel so emotionally weak, like I cant overcome anything anymore, like I can't push through anymore, like I can't even break down anymore because I've used up all those cards already. I feel bad that I've been a complete mess before and here I am again sitting cross-legged looking up at a tidal wave of vast overreaction. I ( Read more... )

It's really cold in here. So, I meant to be productive today but it just didn't happen. I want Sam to get online so I can ask him to play frisbee with me ( Read more... )

I can't sleep again. While I was at Sam's watching a movie Steve sent me this message ( Read more... )

Tonight at around 3 30 AM he brought me MnMs, Skittles, a 24 oz coffee, some peppermint gum and a mixtape. I was cramming for a Chemistry exam I have at 12 30 PM tomorrow ( Read more... )