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[spilling_poetry]

i lost my job on the 3rd of december. right-O, kids, i am unemployed. but the job search goes on; rather started this afternoon. we're broke. we DID christmas. presents for all immediate blood relatives and in-laws to be. harassing phone calls from creditors and an appetite for alcohol have made for an interesting but not totally riveting

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[devianceisbliss]

oh jesus, pineapple curry chicken is my new addiction as of last month. it's so fragrant and beautiful ♥

[livinonluv]

you just need to force yourself to break out and start doing something productive. i always feel better when i'm job hunting becuase at least i'm getting something accomplished even if i don't get any of them. and i must proclaim at the top of my screaming lungs that DAY TIME TELEVISION IS NEVER THE ANSWER, HAZEL!!! my lady, pull yourself together. you obviously know your problems and their symptoms and that leads me to the conclusion that you also know the road out of your slump, but your just having too much fun wallowing in the beautifulness of pain and depression. i do the same thing, but it only works for so long until you piss off everyone around you enough that they'd rather not be around. wish i was there or you here or whatever but simple truth is you are strong enough to pull out of this yourself, and you know your own strength. you just prefer to indulge in the pretty hate machine... misery is more pure than happiness (or at least it feels that way), but you can't get swallowed in it. only small excursions, weekend trips,

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[livinonluv]

it was, again, good to see you and stephen over the break. i heard from stephen that you had your wisdom teeth removed, and my sympathies are with you (i stayed mostly on xanax as i was "drug free" at the time it gave me an admirable excuse to indulge in my former and always possibly future vice). my pep-talk was a bit influenced by a couple margaritas so it seems that it might have been unnecessary upon re-perusal of your entry. instead, i should have offered you a congratulations on the renewed search for a job at/near the library and a hearty, "keep up the good work and for god's sake, hazel stop watching the daytime telly!" stay safe and mildly sane or whatever works for you at the time...

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