I have to say, that it has been in the last few weeks that I have been progressively more depressed. I am trying really hard to look at the good side and be happy, but it just is not working ( Read more... )

So over the summer I found out one of the guys I went to high school and middle school with got signed to the Germany soccer team ( Read more... )

So there was a reggae band at Folk and Blue, which when I saw them was so glad I got dragged out. However they were not as great as I thought they would be, no Alpha Blondie. They played some good songs (3) but than it was "you guys like folk so we will play what you guys like" I was very sad. Why bring in a black reggae band when many of the ( Read more... )

I don't understand.... I know things happen and that people change and grow apart, but in a matter of weeks and months and days does it really happen so fast? Have I changed? Is it me that is the problem that I am the one that should revert back to my old self that everyone saw ( Read more... )

It is rather funny. I could hold that persona that is Angela Davis, or even Foxy Brown. I can be that woman, but at the same time I am too timid to do anything. I am too scared to ruin the relationship I have ( Read more... )

I don't understand. Why can't I flip out about the "little things", I am not allowed to care about things that mean nothing to others. I have what I hold important and maybe to other people it was not. i hold things that mean every little very close. It is the little things that make me happy. That the joy I get to feel when i look upon something ( Read more... )

I lkie titles that have maybe nothing to do with what I am saying. It gives people a misconspeption sbout who they think I am ( Read more... )

So try as I might things just don't work out for me. i guess I have to say this first. I am sorry to everyone I ever hurt. I am sorry that you had to be around me. That you witnessed my insensitivity to your need and my own. I am sorry that I have not changed. That if you still know me that you should abandon me cause I am not worthy of such. And I ( Read more... )

So the rain is falling here at Beloit. And somehow I am glad. I love the rain the the good memories it brings me. Even the ones that leave me bitter still bring me joy. I feel a little upset that I never got to see some people, and I feel that it was not in my power to bring them forth. If that makes any sense at all. There is also the fact that ( Read more... )