Comments | spiderine: Not over it, not past it

spiderine

Not over it, not past it

Jun 05, 2012 11:11

I think I can finally talk about what crashed me. It was a week ago and I'm still not "over it". I don't think I'm ever going to be "over" it; some things you don't get over, you just get past. I know I'll have to get past it someday, but I don't know when and I don't know how. I certainly don't know whether I want to.

( Cut because you don't need even more moaning from me )

occupy boston, selfpity, nutcase, i have no brain for this, work, begging inc.

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spiderine June 5 2012, 17:57:22 UTC

Thank you so much for your hugs and kind words! *hugs back*

sparkindarkness June 5 2012, 17:03:19 UTC

I offer hugs and hope - because sometimes that's all we have left

spiderine June 5 2012, 17:57:38 UTC

Thank you, Sparky. *hugs back*

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spiderine June 5 2012, 17:51:56 UTC

While I appreciate the roof over my head and understand that at the moment it's a privilege, I refuse to succumb to the urging of The Powers That Be that I should be grateful for it as something that could be taken away at any moment rather than as a basic human dignity. That's fear-mongering and nothing but. I appreciate what I have by fighting for the right of other people to have that same dignity ( ... )

leafshimmer June 5 2012, 17:48:18 UTC

Ugh. I do think writing about it, what happened, who said what, how it made you feel, your evolving response--is all a step forward.

I also think that knitting is great therapy--wish *I* could do it but I seem to lack the necessary coordination.

I know from personal experience that baking is very good for funk/depression. If you can stand to go in the kitchen and switch the oven on, mucking about with some flour might be a good thing to do now.

hugs, Shimmer

spiderine June 5 2012, 17:56:49 UTC

Thank you. Knitting takes far more concentration and energy than I have right now. So does baking.

bare_bear June 5 2012, 18:37:12 UTC

Cripes. I don't blame you at all for feeling the way that you do. I can't belive they didn't hire you considering your experience and proven skills. I know I'm just a random in Canada, but I've been thinking about you and wishing you the best, and I'll continue to do so. *hugs and internet beers*

Knitting may take too much concentration and energy right now, but what about smashing something? Hang up a rug or blanket on a branch or clothes line and go the fuck crazy on it with a broom. Let's off some frustration and knocks the dust out of the item at the same time!

Remember that there's people all around you that care about you and are there for you when you're ready for them. Even strangers from Canada.