Maybe Sara will be home soon. We'll drink and have fun and I wont feel so alone. I feel better having typed in my journal.

... I find myself feeling lonely, almost, misplaced lately. I'm starting to feel cold and discarded. Not by any one person, it's just all coming together so many times over and I am feeling more apathetic than I would like to. But at the same time, I almost think that I am going back to that state where I don't want to feel anymore. There's a ( Read more... )

The more you talk and think about it ( Read more... )

Today I went back and bought some things that I had pushed aside, for which to buy other things. All jewelry. I bought two more wrist malas. One made of lotus seed, the other of bodhi seed. And I purchased a necklace and a pendant. The necklace is made of water buffalo bone and carved into the OM/AUM symbol. The pendant is made of silver and is a ( Read more... )

Firstly, these are two fairly different comments I make.

The first:

Yesterday, I pondered something profound for a bit; and it is thus- "That an honest mistake is always much better than a deceitful intention." It was a bit of little known truth passing through my head, which if not truly little known, is instead little acknowledged. I also think ( Read more... )

I feel the need to take this time to express my own dissappointment in myself. My progress along my recent path has been thrown askew as a result of peer-related stress the past few weeks. Though, I am not dishing out blame. There is no one to blame but myself for my own weakness ( Read more... )

...*sigh*... I really don't know how much more I can apologize for not being the daughter you wanted, Dad ( Read more... )

I was thinking and I've concluded that, in trying to find a sense of community, we often hender ourselves. When trying to find those that share our interest, after doing so, we forget where our other interests lie. And I like so many different things that if I focus one place I betray another part of myself. And you know, why should I have to ( Read more... )

I think that self discovery is a beautiful thing... and aside from beautiful, ongoing. It all depends on what causes change in you. But, discovering yourself is only the beginning. Even more beautiful than self discovery, is the acceptance of the self. Not the "self" but the spirit and essence of you ( Read more... )

I think that... when you try to find people to connect with, you focus more on what would make you connect rather than, what makes that person connect to you. And no matter how sincere the original intention was... it always ends up being fake later on down the road ( Read more... )