Days are getting better every time I stop myself from dreaming. Once again, I work for money. It wont be long before I sell the rest of my soul, and become an average american. I really hope I get to play a show soon. I'm willing to write shitty music, just to play a show. I know all of the dusty old guitar licks to get all the chicks. Today I ( Read more... )

I'll be making some drastic changes in my life starting now. Hopefully, I become a better person.

Everything I do seems pointless. I should be getting something out of life, yet I feel empty all the time. When I'm happy, I think about why I shouldn't be. I understand that I'm a pretty rotten human being. I treat my good friends like shit, when I really just want to hug them. Will I be alive in a year or two? I'll blow my head off before I get a ( Read more... )

I've been let down to many times tonight. I made Flan tonight which is a spanish dessert. It was ok, but it's not on my top ten list of favorite sweet snacks. The new maritime album makes me feel happy to live. My new puppy dog Schatzi pees all the time, but I love him. I really want to play music. I miss playing shows. I'm going to take a trip. ( Read more... )

Let me hide behind this bottle. It helps me to socialize. I need the booze, so I can ease up. Mmmm, the sweet taste of sipping my blues away.

I feel like shit. Hopefully, I'll do something fun today to forget how horible of a person I am.

I painted you a story, and you tore it to pieces. The fairytale ending was to real for your imagination. These minutes together are shorter then seconds. Griping the fact that we are humans, I wonder why we are beings. I may seem crazy to an ordinary person because I'm just another ordinary guy. Things don't always have to be so dramatic. You break ( Read more... )

If you feel like going for a swim, meet me at white lake channel. We can race each other across the freezing cold great lake. If you dont show up, to hell with you then. I'll freeze to death alone.

Loneliness is killing me. I need someone to keep me away from my crazy thoughts. I don't know what I'm thinking. A kid with a face like this should never dream of having a companion. I think it's time for me to take a long voyage. I see adventure in the near future. If I'm going to be alone, I might as well be fighting off cannibalistic natives on ( Read more... )

It has been snowing outside nonstop for awhile, and its making me sick. I hate the color of snow. Why can't snow be black or pink? I think mother nature is racist. I just wrote a pop song, and it's driving me crazy. Maybe I'll record it and become famous. I'm thinking about starting a bar band. I would totally do covers from bands like thin lizzy, ( Read more... )