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[sourgrapes]

I forgot how to write about thoughts and feelings. For some reason I have it in my head that I shouldn't talk about anything ever. It's weird. Maybe because I don't have much to talk about that wouldn't make me come off as all crazy and depressed, which I guess am, but, I don't know

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[sonofdarold]

<3

[sourgrapes]

<3

[sarar]

No one likes to imagine what other people think of them when they share their feelings that aren't wonderful and happy. I feel your pain.

[sourgrapes]

You're right. I read through old entries where I had no problem pouring my heart out. As embarrassing as that was to read through, I miss feeling like it's okay to show emotion and put it all out there. But I think it'll be good to start writing in here again since I don't really talk to anyone about these things.

Plus, I really want to be able to look back in a few years and see how much I've changed. It's kind of an eye-opener to read through old entries and cringe and laugh at myself.

[sarar]

I think that's definitely a good idea. I talk to people about it. I'm starting to do it less and less, though. It's not new anymore; it's the same bullshit. I don't want to bother anyone with the same information. If they know, they know, and I feel like there's no point in telling them. I just feel embarrassed that I STILL feel shitty, like it's something I can fix.

I can't bring myself to read old entries, unless I'm looking for some event in particular, that I can't remember when or exactly what happened, to see if I wrote about it. It's too...revealing of the things I find obnoxious about myself. Haha