This has been the hardest day of my life, by far. I've dreaded this day since as long as I can remember and now I still can't believe it has come
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oh jen... i'm so sorry about muff ball. i know all too well what you're feeling right now....but i also know how strong of a person you are, and that you will get through teaching tomorrow. i'll be thinking about you all day - sending you hugs and a whole lotta smiles.
muff's in a better place now. i wish i could be there for you in person. i loooove you. xoxoxo
I wish you were here too. Somehow I feel like you're the only one (other than andrew and my family, and your mom) who knows what it feels like. Unless you've been through it, you don't know. I made it through the day somehow, being busy at school was a distraction. But coming home was hard, and we're all dealing it in our own way. I cant stand being in the house, I feel like there's a constant reminder EVERYWHERE. In a way I want another pet right away, but don't at the same time because I don't want to forget about her and think of another one. But then at the same time I miss having a pet to cuddle whenever I want to, she was so good for that. I can't stop talking about it clearly. Im ransacking my room looking for pictures I have of her. I don't know how long this will last but I feel like I can't let go and I shouldn't have to. I guess only time heals these kinds of things.
Numb describes it perfectly...it's like when you felt her warm fur last you still have that feeling like you could feel air and it would be there but slowly you know it's fading...it fuckin sucks. Just remember what I told you, they don't really go.
Not just the feel of the fur but the smell of it. I felt like I couldn't leave the room because I just wanted to smell her forever so I would never forget. I miss that smell.
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muff's in a better place now. i wish i could be there for you in person.
i loooove you. xoxoxo
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I made it through the day somehow, being busy at school was a distraction. But coming home was hard, and we're all dealing it in our own way. I cant stand being in the house, I feel like there's a constant reminder EVERYWHERE.
In a way I want another pet right away, but don't at the same time because I don't want to forget about her and think of another one.
But then at the same time I miss having a pet to cuddle whenever I want to, she was so good for that.
I can't stop talking about it clearly.
Im ransacking my room looking for pictures I have of her. I don't know how long this will last but I feel like I can't let go and I shouldn't have to. I guess only time heals these kinds of things.
I wish you were here. ugh.
love u.
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I keep msging you today.
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Not just the feel of the fur but the smell of it.
I felt like I couldn't leave the room because I just wanted to smell her forever so I would never forget. I miss that smell.
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