WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!?!

[soooooconfused]

Everytime I think that I am going to be okay...I fall down!!!! Everytime I think I am finally going to get to be happy, everything blows up in my face!!! I just want to be happy...like for real happy!!! Is that to much to ask for??? Really!!! People pray for miracles and get them...I pray for something to put a smile on my face and I dont get it...

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[sublime_monarch]

Well all the explaination marks really exemplified the entire piece lol. I really don't know whats going on. You don't open up on here as much as you think you do. If you always assume no one really reads it why not just type whats really going on? I didn't even try to decipher the last post. I know we can talk by other means, but believe it or not this is the most acessible way for me to communicate with you and everyone else. So it's hard to understand what your talking about when you only give out pieces of the problem. If you believe that the information you defuldge is going to compromise things with the other friends on the list then boot them. Thats what I did. I only have people that I trust. This cancer, medicine thing is all new to me. And the getting sued part. Don't be afraid to worry me. Thats what im good at doing. Get back at me. Love U

[soooooconfused]

surgery (about a month ago) they pulled out new tumors...if not takin serious, they can lead to cancer, that is why they are trying out a new plan of action, I have to take a pill once a day for the rest of my life unless I am pregnent then I have to stop taking them till I give birth! The side effects from the pills are severe mood swings, they compoletly shut down my female organs except for 4 weeks out of the year. They are supposed to stop the growth of the tumors and slow down the endometriosis, so far I havent had any pain in my stomach but the mood swings are crazy and the depression is getting worse! But not being in pain everyday kinda makes it worth it...I guess...getting sued is new to me too! I got some papers in the mail saying that a civil suit has been filied against me, but it didnt have any details so I have to wait for more paperwork to find out what the hell is going on! As far as the last post goes, an old friend has been trying to talk things out lately and Im not sure how to react to it...thats all. More info on

[babymama20]

you need to just try and relax and quit letting things get to you so easily... and you dont have to put a fake smile on you know im here for you and you can talk to me about anything you listen to my problems all the time and always try and help me out what are friends for??? to help each other through things.... so whenever your ready to talk about everything that is going on just let me know and ill be here to listen and try and help you through it all.. and about the mood swings you knew you was gonna get them and its just a part of something everyone that loves you and is in your life is gonna have to deal with the best they can.

[sublime_monarch]

Ditto

[soooooconfused]

Thanks for being a great friend Tracy!!! I dont know why every little thing has been getting on my nerves...but I am going to try harder to deal instead of trying to deny the facts!!! You know I will talkto you about everything, I just need some time to figure the whole situation out...you know what Im talkin about!!! Its gonna make me crazy until I figure out what it is that he wants to talk about...you know!!! And thanks for not hitting me the other night...I know I went crazy and Im sorry!!!

[babymama20]

its all good dont worry about it what are good friends for i just sat back and listened to you bitch it was crazy but i was fine with it and i know there are plenty more of them days to come so ill be ready for it this time....but im a good friend and im gonna be there with you through this messed up mood swings your gonna have and if it helps just to walk away or to just get up and leave and then call me like the other night then that is fine with me i will understand completly.