there are alot things id like to tell you but right now i don't care enough to fully express how fucking annoyed i am for thinking i'd have a fucking chance with luck. i am the fool that i thought i was. it was silly of me to rethink my thoughts ( Read more... )

i can't seem to shake my thoughts of him. i think this is.... well you know. knowone else compares but maybe its infatuation that im just feeling? three years of patience. i don't know ( Read more... )

no more drugs. im giving it up. so if we're friends dont let me do them. im finshed.

man, i feel like shit.

so here is a secret i am scared. scared because i am happy. everytime he kisses me i think to myself this is perfect i couldnt ask for anything more. all of this is wrong i have never truly felt this way before. content ( Read more... )

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General news: I went out to West Virginia University this past weekend celebrate 3 of my friends birthdays. I had a fabulous time being relatively drunk for the entire trip. I can't believe how fast the whole weekend went but im looking for forward to coming out there again because I already miss them and its only been 2 days ( Read more... )

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For once in my life i am happy to say that i did something smart. i was patient and was able to step outside the box for a moment acknowledge what was going on exactly and paced myself ( Read more... )

i think im making myself sick from not sleeping normal hours. i dont go to bed until 5am and then i have to force myself to get out of bed by 2pm and my body aches alot. i dont feel good. i need to find a night cap of sorts. anyways the new job is going pretty good. i love cocco la. i just hope they like me too. oh yeah and i guess my love life is ( Read more... )