After visiting my friends here in Colorado and seeing the shortcomings and successes of their band I've decided to up my determination on my latest band idea 'Toulouse'. My friend brian told me a little known secret about why my bass style was hated by my band mates oh so many years ago. As it would seem they hated the fact that what I played could ( Read more... )

This is the final update. I'm sorry I didn't write more...but I suppose I had other things to tend to. 54 battles...I can't believe I've seen this many without Jenny. I remember my words to her vividly. 'I'm coming back to you I promise. I just need time to tie up my loose ends and pay off my debts.' I've paid off all my debts...I've tied up all my ( Read more... )

Hey journal...haven't been here in a while. Just thinking about the memories we shared together make me long for Jennifer even more. Me and you journal we've done just about everything I can imagine a journal and a guy doin. (We never kissed I swear) I'm gonna miss you journal ( Read more... )

Jenny loves me. I'm so happy...Todays the 18th which means that theres only 30 days before I go to live near my wife to be. She loves me...and I can't fathom why or how...I never would have thought it would end up this way...I guess theres a bit more ending to do but still...this far into it and I'm surprised that we are where we are ( Read more... )

I hope this message finds you well...I recall everything...I remember THIS song...these words...I remember looking at my hands and thinking ... there she is God. GOD GODDDD you left her there...you put her there...you let her appear before me...I SEE HER...I can feel it...i hate how far...I hate how unfair how sick HOW FUCKING TWISTED...this is. ( Read more... )

I don't know if I told this journal about my plans to move down to Florida to be with Jenny but...well I plan on it. In fact I've planned on it from the moment I touched down back in colorado after my first visit with her. I remember the whole flight thinking about how I wish I could have stayed but when I touched down...the only thought was...how ( Read more... )

Every song is about you. The words come pouring off the lips of a passerby. They say 'I'm sorry please don't go' They say please don't let me go and run away to someplace with palm trees. A sun hung in the sky by the noose around her neck another freak accident an unexplainable death. I can't sit idly by while my neighbors are pointing fingers. I' ( Read more... )

7/7/04...46 days remain...a lot can happen in that time. She could fall out of love with me...go to school and find someone newer...better...closer. I hate thinking thoughts like these...but I know I HAVE to look at the negative some time ( Read more... )

'Lower your stance ( Read more... )

Ha...well I spose you've heard what happens next...the young man lifts high his sword and sends it down into the monster of which he sought. But why seek a monster? So my weeping willow...gather round again and be prepared to hear the chronicles of the Jabberwocky through the eyes of the very boy who defeated it ( Read more... )