Share - Chapter 5 (Part 1)
Title : Share - Chapter 5
Pairing : Ryopi
Author : Me
Beta : None and please excuse me as english is not my mother language.
Raiting : PG13 (will go NC17 later)
Genre : AU Romance
Disclaimer : Characters are not mine... unfortunately...
Oh my god! It's been so long...
I hope some people will still read it and like it of course.
Enjoy...
The night had fallen a long time ago now but they still didn’t move.
Ryo stopped crying but his breathing was still broken. Yamashita was stroking his hair gently, trying desperately to relax him in order to end this pain that seemed to exhaust him and not let him any form of respite for the past several hours… He hoped that Ryo could forgive him for having judged without having tried to understand. He kept repeating to him over and over again that he was sorry.
The elder was just suffering. This crisis was the strongest he had to face in recent months. He felt like needles were plunged in the joints of his left hand. A throbbing pain, haunting, omnipresent…
He took so many painkiller tonight, that he quite didn’t noticed what was happening around him. He saw that the younger was there but he just couldn’t realize it.
Gently, Yamashita loosened Ryo’s grip and slowly rose to take him to his room, which was not an easy task as the elder literally laid on him.
When they arrived in front of the bed, he laid him in gently and sat on a chair beside him. Ryo cried in pain, not realizing, in his delirium that his anxious student was right there. He was completely helpless against the pain of his coach and his despair turned into panic when he saw him scratching his hand trying to pull out this pain that was torturing him. The youngest took Ryo’s painful hand in his and started to slowly massage it. This movement seemed to ease Ryo who stopped crying. He felt asleep as Yamashita was still firmly holding his hand.
When he opened his eyes, the sun hadn’t risen yet. He didn’t even remember who took him to bed but he knew that this crisis had been terrible. At this very moment he only felt a light pressure, a sweet heat on his left hand. In the darkness he saw Yamashita on a chair. He had fallen asleep. His peaceful beautiful face… Then he let his eyes fall and realized that the sweet pressure was in fact his hand that he firmly held. He hadn’t let go of him and had eased his pain.
Slowly, the older raised and tenderly touched his hair while murmuring his name. The younger slowly opened his eyes and looked at him.
- “Ryo… are you in pain?
- No… thanks to you… come here…”
He pulled him and made him lay on his sides. When doing this, Yamashita had let go of Ryo’s hand and the latter wouldn’t dare to tell him that he was already missing his touch. He decided to try sleeping again when he felt the younger’s hand grabbing his. Immediately a smile came on his lips and finally he could sleep.
* * *
When he woke up the second time, the sun was shining. The crisis was just a bad memory, he felt good now. As usual, he was able to be the one used to… a regular guy, healthy who had a shining future.
He decided to go to the kitchen and found his student sitting at the bar.
He loved this vision of Yamashita in his apartment… reading the newspaper, his lovely face focused. He had rarely seen something as beautiful as that. He really found that he was perfect. His manly body in a sleeveless shirt that let sees his muscles. His sweet face, wonderful lips that you just wanted to kiss, his deep dark eyes where you could see all emotions… there was really nothing more to say…
He had to stop dreaming when Yamashita looked at him and smiled.
- “Sleep well?
- Yeah… I feel better… thanks…
- You’re welcome, don’t worry.”
The young men were looking at each other, there was nothing more to say. Everything was just peaceful. They were smiling at each other… they wouldn’t come back on what happened the day before. Yamashita didn’t want to be thanked for having stayed by his side. He didn’t even had the feeling that he had done anything special… for him he did what had to be done to help him. He also wanted to be forgiven for judging him.
Ryo felt a little shameful… he didn’t want to show this side of him, weak, dependent… even if he had to admit that he was already too late… Yamashita had taken a place in his life that no one could before.
When he looked at his apartment he realized that not only had his student totally cleaned the place but he had also bought something to eat! As he wanted to thank him again, Yamashita suddenly asked:
- “How did you learn that you were sick?
- Sick?
- Ryo… please… I think you can stop lying now…
- Mmmmh… ok…
- So?
- Since the moment no one heard about me anymore.
- You didn’t try to keep playing?
- Have you seen how strong my crises are? You think I can play piano like that?
- Surely not… but…
- And then it came like that, without notice, I was playing in a little showcase and suddenly this horrible pain… Yamashita could see he was reliving the scene. I was barely able to finish the piece. Then I saw a doctor and he told me… no more piano for me.
- Ryo…
- That’s why I’m strict with you about that… you don’t realize how lucky you are. I’d give everything I have to play again. I was so happy with my piano, I felt so complete when I was playing… You’re good, really… you’re the best I’ve seen, I don’t want you to ruin that.
- I know.
- But if you really don’t like piano, then you have to stop. I don’t want you to be unhappy by making the same as your parents.
- It’s really not the same… They didn’t know what they were dealing with; they didn’t know anything about piano… You know. You know how much work it is. When I am with you, I want to play. For you I want to succeed, I’ll win this contest.”
Ryo was looking at his student. For him… he’ll play for him. He didn’t know what to think about that, about this gift Yamashita was giving him. He was giving him his talent; he was letting him dispose of it. They were looking at each other and then Yamashita stood up and told him he was going home and will be waiting for him the next day to start rehearsing. They shared a smile and Ryo was alone. Those last weeks had definitely changed his way of thinking. He was surprised to notice that he wanted to trust the world, to open up to it. And for the moment the world resumed to the sweet smile of Tomohisa.
* * *
They started rehearsing intensively. From dust till dawn, Ryo was at Yamashita’s place making him play the Left Hand Concerto again and again. Slowly, the student was starting to understand how to play it. Slowly the closeness between the young men was increasing. Ryo had definitely given up on the “polite” way of speaking and was now addressing to his student by his name. He had also realized that Yamashita needed this trust in order to be able to play well.
Ryo was coming around 10 in the morning. They practiced Tomohisa’s muscles flexibility during 2 hours, then ate and finally they played and played again during about 4 hours. At the end of this day they sat quietly and had a little drink while talking about way of playing and pianistic methods.
It was during one of this quiet time that Jin arrived without notice.
- “Hey my little kittens! Sorry to come by without telling but I have a surprise for you Pi!”
The two men raised their head to find another young boy behind Jin. His features were so fine that it almost gave him a feminine appearance. He looked at Ryo and smiled. An astonishing smile that made his face shine, a smile Ryo gave a shy answer to in front of a very surprised Yamashita, who wasn’t used to see the elder so “open”.
- “Pi, my lovely Pi, let me introduce you Tegoshi Yuya. Tegoshi, this is Yamashita Tomohisa, the friend I talked you about and next to him this is Nishikido Ryo his piano coach.
- I am very happy to meet you, said Yuya without leaving Ryo’s eyes.
- Pi, Yuya is a singer and a very good one. I just met him and I think you two should collaborate.
- Collaborate?
- Yamashita-kun, said Yuya, I saw you play in the Club and I just love your songs. A while ago, a producer saw me in a bar where I was singing and he’d like to produce me. I am very happy about that but I do not have good songs. So I just want to ask you, please, write me some songs.”
Tomohisa was staring at him… Songs… write him some songs.
- “Pi… you have to hear him sing before answering.
- …Ok… but I was working with Ry…
- No Tomo… let’s hear him sing, we’ll start again after that don’t worry, said Ryo while smiling at Yamashita. Tegoshi-kun, please…”
He invited the young man to come closer of his student who had taken place in front of his piano.
- “Well, Tegoshi-kun, what do you want to sing?
- Mmh… Do you know Summertine, Diana Krall’s version?
- Yeah.”
He started to play and Tegoshi’s voice rose suddenly leaving the three young men completely speechless.
What could they say about it? It was as if an angel had come in Yamashita’s leaving room. Tegoshi’s voice was just sublime. Ryo and Jin were sitting on the sofa, Jin had a beatific smile on the lips and Ryo had closed his eyes, listening. Yamashita was playing while intensively listening. Yes, the voice was wonderful and being able to write for it would be a very interesting experience. When the song was over, they both knew that there was no doubt about this collaboration, they even didn’t need to confirm it.
It was then decided that Yamashita and Ryo would work during the day and that Yuya would come every two evening. Than began this “double” collaboration.
Yes, the young pianist was sometimes tired… but he had finally found a way to do everything he liked. During the day he was pleasing Ryo by playing on his piano and at night he could let his creativity speak with Tegoshi while discovering his amazing voice.
Ryo liked to stay a while during Yamashita and Tegoshi sessions. He liked to see them work. Tegoshi seemed to appreciate his presence, looking for his smiles, talking to him. At the end of rehearsals, Tegoshi often brought him back home, as they did not live very far and they talked a lot together. Of course, Ryo never talked about his illness, but he felt good with this young man so smiling, so open, that constantly sought to make him laugh. This light brought a pleasant note in his life.
Despite this new friendship, it was always with his student that he wanted to stay the most. With him, he felt safe, protected… Yamashita was careful that Ryo didn’t suffer. As soon as Nishikido had a strange face, he asked him if he had a crisis and gave him his medication. Ryo used to call him mum gently making fun of his attentions.
Yamashita was improving and Ryo was glad to notice beautiful emotions in his student way of playing.
They were quietly having a drink when the younger asked cheerful:
- “Hey Ryo, would you like to come to a party with me?
- Well…
- It’s in a great place, open bar, that could be nice no?
- Tomo, I really don’t know…
- Oh come on! It’s gonna be fun… Plus, there will be lots of gorgeous girls! I could introduce you to some of them!”
Ryo looked at his student. After all this time he couldn’t believe he still hadn’t understand!
- “Tomo… you’re kidding… right?
- No why?
- Tomo… he bent over his student as if to tell a secret, I’m gay.”
http://sodigirl1980.livejournal.com/2310.htmlPart 2