i dont think i've never felt so scared, confused, angry, sad, excited, nervous and guilty in my life...
well, atleast not all of these specific emotions at once anyway.

so here i lay.. in my sleeping bag at 2 something am writing this entry with my phone.. i cant sleep cu9 i havf too many thoughts going thru my head.. when will this stop?

fuckin' a. seriously.

two things i hate the most:
1. waiting... actually, this isn't so bad if they contact you. but if they fuckin' dont answer their phone, that pisses me off.
2. wasting money.

and today? both things happened. fucking-a.

smiling, joking around, acting cute... it's all the same.
Not so much as a nervous reaction, but a defense mechanism.

who knows if its healthy, but it's a way to hide.
a way to project what people expect.

but you can't ALWAYS be smiling. you can't ALWAYS be happy.
nothing is as it seems... dont forget

i'm at Ian, Peter and Avi's attempting to do work while Brad, Will, Nissim and Peter are trying to cook.

I love these kids.
they're crazy... :)

needless to say, i'm not getting TOO much work done... :p

who knew a bruise on your elbow could be so uncomfortable? or a pulled leg muscle for that matter? 
i'm hurting in so many areas, it's not even funny........
boo.

OMGWTFBBQ!! i dont want to do work. i hate doing work. i hate papers. i hate classes. i hate school.

ok, that's  a lie, i dont HATE them... i just prefer not to do them. hehe
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partaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
"it's poppin'~~~!!!"
-Carl Ten Horn

HAHAHHAHA
<3 I LOVE THESE KIDS.

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you know, it's funny how people change...
I used to be SO addicted to livejournal (and just the internet in general). But now, I couldn't be bothered.

I remember the days when I used to check this every hour or so to see if people updated or commented on my entries... Now, I just occasionally write entries or forget that I have this at all.  I ( Read more... )

just got back from NYC ( Read more... )