It's long, but if I put an LJ cut, you'd be less susceptible to read it all.

[so_do_it]

I love when I see a huge long entry from someone that I love and admire, it makes me feel good to read it, and gather, and infer from it. It makes me feel like something in their life isn't going too well, and they're letting me into their life. It makes me feel good that they trust me enough to read their inner most feelings. I am doing that

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[swanksymphony]

I don't think its really fair saying that we lost you because I have made efforts to email you and I am too scared to call you but you never reply to anything I have sent you. I feel that it is the other way around. No one talks about how great it is not to have you there, actually its the other way around about how much easier things would be if you hung out with us so we wouldnt feel bad about taking Kate or so that we could see her more often. Mostly everyone is just confused at your abscence from everyone and your dislike of us... thats about it. Me and Jeff would love to talk to you but I feel like you only want to correct things with Jeff and for some reason beyond my comphrension I am not going to get that chance.... and I dont think thats quite fair. I have known you for about all of your high school career and I dont think I have done anything that should make you hate me or etc. So if you want to talk I would like that.