starting fresh. fuck the past. clearing out garbabe. new journal. friend it if you still like to read this crap.

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up the punx. yadda yadda.

everything about this week past monday night has been incredibly stupid. stupid, irritating, and discouraging. to deal with it last night i drank 102oz of pbr in a half hour and went home to drink half a bottle of jim beam and got all sorts of emotional. i'm not quite concerned with my growing dependancy on alcohol to deal with trouble but rather ( Read more... )

i drink alot these days. i've also been listening to alot of feel-good music. i'm pretty happy with myself even if everyone else thinks otherwise. this goes for both kids in providence and the kids that say they love me. i don't see many problems in me. fuck you if you see otherwise.

13 punx in providence. house trashed. torrie annoyed, andy pissed. pretty good cleanup. good show. amazing swooming. my neck is blotchy. wake up for work at 5am. everything was more than worth it.

sometimes the sneaker of life just seems to kick you further down to the ground and as you feel you are stuck some of your friends from that place that you miss more than anything decide to come see you randomly at 7am and make the trip to providence to meet up with the other friends stopping by on tour and leaving you with 9 amazing friends on ( Read more... )

ps. if you have anything to tell me, just say it. i'd rather here the bad news of your lost respect for me now than live much longer under false impressions.

i'm gonna go get my laundry and go to bed. fuck not knowing what the hell is ever going on around you.

it's rediculous how quick i can be to get discouraged about just about anything. worrying about losing my close ties with people, for example.

a truck blew up behind my house tonight. sorry you suckers missed it.

brutal knights weekend was beyond amazing. seeing them play three sets in two days and hanging out with 6 amazing people who say "eh" at least once a minute was such a great time. planning a trip to toronto is hopefully in action ( Read more... )

the outside of my house is now painted this neat faint green with grey trim and purple doors. sadly, this is the extent of things being awesome at my house.