damn i cant believe how terrible i've been for such a long time now. why can't i just stick to the get skinny plan? i always end up losing a little, sometimes a lot and then gaining it all back. *violins ( Read more... )

Alright here's some interesting things I read on msn.com while surfing the net. I know it's scary to hear about metabolism and how what we're doing makes it drop, but there are ways to speed it up and counter-act ( Read more... )

Alright I'm doing good so far today. Not really, but in the grand scheme of things (compared to what I have been eating normally) I've done ok. Two bowls of low sugar oatmeal, some cherries and a banana. It's not really much of an accomplishment since it's only 12pm but there is no jump starting this fat this get off my body so I am just going to ( Read more... )

I haven't been back here in almost a year, but I am already feeling better to be back. It feels so nice to have somewhere to keep my thoughts on how disgusting I've gotten, and my progress, and it is especially nice to talk to people who are going through the exact same thing. It's hellish and I hate it and love it. I hate that I can't be like a ( Read more... )

man i am SOOO tired! I had to get up at 3am for work this morning and i just want to crash but I have so much to do! Not really, I could be putting it all off until tomorrow but I like to be on top of things as much as possible. Anyhoo, so far today just coffee and half a bagel. I always order a bagel and then eat as little as I possibly can (i ( Read more... )

its the little things that get me. i dont gorge on coconut cream pie, or chocolate chip cookies or steak. I will go straight for the chips and salsa, or the cereal, and not only eat a few i'll eat the chips until all the dip is gone, or i'll eat three bowls instead of just one (when im binging). dont worry, this didnt happen (thank god) but i got ( Read more... )

dont remember during the day yesterday. i think i just had coffee and cigarettes. then last night we went to J in the Box and i had a chicken pita (that i ate most of) and that wasnt so bad but i also ate almost the whole thing of curly fries. i dont feel too bad considering i dont think i ate anything before that though. today i had a cracker, ( Read more... )

i didnt think it would be this easy to swing back in to ana, but then again i am in the easiest stage. I'm only fighting myself right now, my own urges to eat, which really hasnt been that hard yet. i know it will get hard, but my problem is not myself, its my family and what will happen when they start to notice something is up. Luckily I'm a ( Read more... )

well im back, trying to stay away from food. i had two packets of cheeze-its (they are 180 cals each) so thats like 360 which i guess was my dinner. as long as i dont eat anything else than i'll be good. i think thats under 1,000 cals for today, which is actually higher than im shooting for by whatev. its still good. i feel like im losing weight ( Read more... )

alright had a few bites of a pop tart, half a bagel (closer to a whole one this time but whatev) and half a can of tunafish. so yeah im doing good so far. dont know what im gonna do for the rest of the night but hopefully it doesnt involve food. im proud of myself today i hope to keep this up. i know it only gets more challenging from here, but ( Read more... )