so... i've come to visit a friend who lives say about 30-45 minutes from my job.. depending on traffic. and my car died. and ... we're in frickin suburbia and everyone is at work. and i have to be at work tonight. so i have to get my car jumped.. hope that it will make it to somewhere that i can get the battery replaced and be to work on time. yes ( Read more... )

so... not having my own computer suckz..... bla. and my myspace profile is down the instant i'm able to access a computer. GR! so... I went back to Rocky for the first time since I left. Chandler isn't with them for now. It was weird. the lineup was mega weird. all sorts of craziness at work. I've discovered that I'm trapped at the store I work at ( Read more... )

so... do i have anything left to hold me down here? not so much anymore. because the one thing you think i would be afraid of losing forever... i know if it's meant to be this won't be the end. and.. the wise ones encouraged me to do what's best for me and not worry about the people i'm going to miss. argh. i'm uber sad on the inside.. but i'm at ( Read more... )

so.. if i go to NC.. will i just be running away from my problems down here? or will i be going to face the ones i left behind? and if i leave.. everyone i leave behind... will i ever see them again? but then... why am i constantly worrying about everyone else instead of just doing what's best for me? argh!

I feel like such a horrible person right now. My friend Shannon tells me that I'm the most giving person she knows. is that really true? I'm so selfish. and all i do is complain. er. I'm becoming so bitter. and now.. I feel as though I can't open up anymore. like.. even talking to people I've always been able to tell everything.. I just do this ( Read more... )

So I definitely have not been around a omputer lately. the only time i get to use one is when i only have time enough to check the lineup for rocky. I'm depressed as usual. I've been walking around in a daze this past week. This is so hard. Everything was perfect and now it's over. With Christian it was easier because there was the fighting... the ( Read more... )

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I hate this.. I don't want to hurt someone I care about, still hold feelings for, but I'm tired of being hurt. I want to just never talk to him again, that's the best thing to do. But how do I tell him this? *tear* why did he have to come back early?

K, so i'm single now. and the only guy that i would really date right now would never date me. or give me the second glance. i hate crushing on perfect people. anywho.. I need to concentrate on getting my life together. I need counseling.. but i guess until i get that, i can use my life journal. it doesn't take notes or go mhmm all the time. i have ( Read more... )