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(i like my life)

Oh blah. Cassie called me and since then I can't fall back asleep. My mind is going in circles over and over, thinking about her, thinking about New Year's, thinking about how even after these years I don't know how to be myself around her. I feel this overwhelming pressure to be as likable and amicable as possible to help counter what I put her ( Read more... )

Lauren is driving me motherfucking crazy. I know she's a nice girl and all, but she is one of the most passive-aggressive people I have ever met, and I'm having a hard time biting my tongue around her ( Read more... )

OK. I feel better. I did Burn Intervals and worked the hell out of my muscles. I got through the set of 20 burpees for the first time without having to take a break! I AM getting in better shape ( Read more... )

I got into a discussion with a lesbian acquaintance of mine. She brought up the topic, "Hypothetically, if we ever got together, would you be the dom or the sub?" (On reflection, what the hell kind of question is that, but I didn't think about it at the time ( Read more... )

Once in a while it hits me hard, when I'm at work, that I'm an adult now -- they call me a teacher, and I am responsible for the development and safety of small, disabled children ( Read more... )

I will admit I'm partially writing people handwritten cards, and being as nice as I can to everyone I can think of, in the hopes that a) they will feel just a little happier and not feel loneliness, and b) that cosmically somehow all that paying attention to other people will come back to me in spades later ( Read more... )

Blah, I feel lonely and I'm sick of eating healthy, so of course I bury the feelings by 1) eating heavily 2) sleeping too much 3) sitting around feeling sorry for myself 4) thinking I should donate some money to some cause so I can prove I'm a good person ( Read more... )

i fucking HATE the internet and I hate email and i hate texting and i hate WOW and i hate having all those things, i don't even want the OPTION to talk to people in a non-real way. i hate knowing all these freaks (too strong, i know, but let me rant here for once) -- all these FREAKS who are too bloody scared to form any real friendships because ( Read more... )

I feel stale and used-up and tired. I'm going to hang out with Tim today and he asked me to find something to do, and I just don't even care. I WANT to go out, but I don't care WHAT we do, and it's stressful to try to come up with something that will be OK in his book when I don't even know what he bloody likes ( Read more... )