lighthearted vs. downhearted.

[skinfolds]

As I was driving to work today, I thought about the changes I have gone through as a person over the last year. I think the most drastic revision I see in myself is that I’ve become simple-minded. I don’t mean that I’ve become childlike or unsophisticated or naïve in any way; I mean it more in the sense that I’ve turned into an artless, ingenuous

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[_kisstobetray]

to be carefree and philosophical is entirely possible.
i haven't been writing much lately, granted
and i am happier than i've ever been in my life...
but i feel the words inside.

being carefree can inspire a lot in you... haha... just try to find it :) xo.

[skinfolds]

that's the thing. i am entirely &completely HAPPY. i feel like this is how i was meant to be. but i'm not inspired; i don't think about much anymore, other than the reasons i am happy. {shrugs} i know its not a bad thing... i just wish i had more to say i guess.

[_kisstobetray]

oh i understand COMPLETELY *sigh*
i think we need to both give it some time, we'll find our way back to writing. it can't just leave us forever, i know that is not what is supposed to happen. if there is one thing i know, is that you just cannot push inspiration. it comes and goes, whenever it likes. how fickle.

but yeah..

[skinfolds]

i've found my meaning; perhaps its just the comfort of what i feel that i have to wait for. i mean, i FEEL comfortable, but i'm still adjusting to it. {shrugs}

[__moderne]

i wouldnt know because i have found, in my case, the very same thing. odd, as that almost makes it a cycle. i get so depressed that i write. and when i cannot write, i can become so depressed.

carefree & philsophical. maybe it really isnt possible. maybe it is the job of the great thinkers to "always look as if they have the weight of the world on their shoulders". my grandmother used to say that to me. and as a child, i felt profound. now, as an adult, i fear im only just a burn out.

xLei

[skinfolds]

that's exactly what i feel.

[i've missed you...]

[subtexts]

Well, a human being evolves through many stages in their lives, and a lot has to do with the events and people in their lives, and how they affect his/her feelings and world view. Don't worry too much about not being "deep and meaningful" 24/7 - I'm sure when the time arises for reflection and philosophy, no matter what triggers it, be it sadness or misfortune or just a quiet space and time to think about things, you'll be able to revert back to that part of you familiar with that side of you, quite comfortably (I imagine). It's not like you've lost your ability to be insightful - it's still in you whenever you wish to tap in.

[skinfolds]

its just that i've been wishing, &its just not working. {sigh} i guess its still in me whenever i'm READY. must.be.patient.

[cheerup___honey]

I'm afraid I've grown to be the same thing. Just a person who gets up and goes to work every day to pay the bills.

[skinfolds]

its so monotonous.