I haven't had my internet connection for a while so I haven't been able to communicate with the masses, that's not to say that I didn't think about you. So to one and all I am back in the land of the living, drop me a line sometime.

I just woke up, and I don't think anything in my life has ever been so clear. There has been a lot of drama in the past few days, stirred up by someone who doesn't have a clue as to what they are talking about. I apologized to the other individuals for casting blame on them for the actions of said individual, I was wrong to say the things I said ( Read more... )

I sat outside and smoked a cigarette, contemplating the events of the last two days. Hurtful things were said by everyone involved, and I regret my part in them, however, as a sage person once said a couple of weeks ago, responsibility is spread far and wide to all involved. Feelings were hurt, trusts broken, and for what? we are sane, ( Read more... )

I am having a very bad life and I can't seem to get out of the funk, I need help and some guidance, in short, I need my mommy. But if anyone has some words of encouragement, they would be much appreciated.

Everything sucks, and I wish it were all done and over with, is this engagement of mine worth the trouble and agony that it is currently putting me through? I am so over life and would be totally ok if it ended now.

I am still awake, why?, I do not know, I have a hard time getting to sleep anyway, but I took an ambien and it still isn't working. I can only assume that I am still giddy over Sundays epiphany, but you would think that it would allow me a good nights sleep, right? but noooo, well you know what they say, no rest for the wicked. Anyhoo, I am ( Read more... )

brandon is alive and well and living within my subconcious, along with Elvis and Jimmy Hoffa.

Today I went to church with Em, and I am so glad I did, because I realize what I am missing, I found the validation that I have been seeking. It didn't really dawn on me though, till I was watching the SuperBowl, and I heard Josh Groban sing, I cried, I cried for all of the things that were important to me. I sat there and all of God's blessings ( Read more... )

travel seems like a good idea, I've been all over the U.S. except for Alaska and Hawaii. The money issue is the problem, I have to get caught up on my debt, I also have a wedding to think about and all of my moving expenses. I am so overwhelmed with all of the crap, but I am going to let go and let God and see where it leads me. I figure where ( Read more... )

So I have to go to work today, just to give everyone a shout out and tell you that today is a red balloon day, act accordingly. Things are looking up, and I think today is gonna be a zippity-do-dah kind of day. I feel pretty good and want to share the inner sunshine, so again, Red Balloon Alert, pass it on. Love you all and Godspeed.