let me be here for you once

[mediumdrip]

Who: Blaine and Kurt (possibly Rachel later?)
When: Today, a couple hours before sirens.
Where: Their apartment
Summary: Kurt gets himself into trouble on the network and it brings back horrible memories. Blaine comes home and finds him.
Warnings: Triggery stuff with Kurt's memories of Yaha. Including descriptions of a panic attack. Tread with

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[showbizpanache]

Kurt didn't hear Blaine come in. His ear buds were planted firmly in his ears, his iPod blaring loud enough to echo through the kitchen as he painstakingly iced his third cake. It was a carrot cake, made with pistachios and dried fruit, with plenty of spice. The frosting was I know what it is that you will give me cream cheese and smile for me just the right amount of milk for consistency--

His hand slipped a little, ruining the edge of the cake, and he cursed.

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The smell of the baking was the first hint that he wasn't alone in the apartment, but then Kurt's curse confirmed it. Blaine frowned a bit as he headed towards the kitchen.

Kurt wasn't really the type or curse unless he was really upset. Blaine didn't think that he was saying words like that just because a cake didn't rise the way it was supposed to or something like that.

"Hey," he said when he saw Kurt in the kitchen. Then, realizing that Kurt couldn't really hear him. He said Kurt's name louder. "Kurt?"

[showbizpanache]

It wasn't right, it wasn't smooth enough. Kurt tried again, spreading another layer of icing to cover his mistake, but it still didn't look right. It looked terrible. Lopsided.

He kept trying. His eyes glazed over as he stared at the cake, the third one he'd completely screwed up. How was he supposed to have Christmas dinner for guests when he couldn't ice a damn cake, when he couldn't--

I want your virginity.

"Kurt?" Blaine's voice was finally audible over the sound of his music and he gasped in fright. "Blaine! Jesus, you scared me."

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Blaine raises his brow a bit. "Sorry," he apologized and then when he was sure that Kurt could hear him, "Are you okay?" He looked over at the work that Kurt had been doing and then back at his boyfriend.

He wasn't sure what Kurt was planning on doing with the cakes. It was possible he was making them for some kind of bake sale or to give them to friends. Blaine didn't want to just assume that he was baking while upset again.