[Accidental Video]

[meteor_heart]

[This was supposed to be an audio log, but a lack of sleep combined with an NV virus that never quite went away means it's going to be video. Tifa looks exhausted, her upper half sprawled on the kitchen table with one arm straight out and her head resting on it. Chocolate brown hair is spread about her like it's been caught in a wind storm.Cloud

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[as_a_lady]

Oh, honey... I ain't seen a Cloud or anythin'

But are you doing okay?

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[meteor_heart]

I'll be okay Sookie. Just...kind of a recurring theme. Cloud likes to go off on his own all the time, but he's up and vanished a couple times here so...it's starting to sort of wear on me.

[She doesn't raise her head to speak, almost like it's too much effort.]

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[as_a_lady]

I'm... sorry. He must be really close to you, huh?

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[meteor_heart]

[Tifa nods, a mess of brown hair moving around on her arm.]

We had a family of sorts on Gaia. Cloud and me and Denzel and Marlene. Having him here was a little like...like...

[Her shoulders hitch and she's quiet for a moment.]

Like being home.

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[otaku_mk_ii]

...Tifa?

[Video]

[meteor_heart]

[Voice muffled by her arm and hair, Tifa raises the other hand in a pseudo-wave.]

Hi Hal.

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[otaku_mk_ii]

Hey...

[He smiled, voice quiet and reassuring.]

Are you okay?

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[meteor_heart]

He's gone again. Maybe for good this time. I just...I don't...

[She balls one hand into a fist, but it just sits on the table impotently, mirroring the path her thoughts are taking. If she can't make him happy...he'll -always- leave like this.]

I don't even know what to do anymore.

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[pullsheavendown]

Did he go off by himself again?

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[meteor_heart]

[Tifa rolls her face into the crook of her arm, so it's hidden in her hair and nods slowly.]

yeah. Seems like if I don't watch him all the time he just kinda vanishes.

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[pullsheavendown]

I'm sorry.

[Video]

[meteor_heart]

[She smiles at him sadly, but actually lifts her head to look.]

It's okay Roxas, I'll...figure it out. Thank you, for being concerned for me.

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[walkthedawn]

Tifa...

[He already knows, even though he doesn't say.]

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[meteor_heart]

Riku.

[Her fingers arch as her nails dig into the table. Shoulders hunching up she buries her face in the crook of her arm. When she speaks it's muffled, better to hide the hurt and anger there.]

...if...if it's true. Say it.

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[walkthedawn]

[He swallows.]

I'm sorry.

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[meteor_heart]

[She's breathing slow and shallow, trying to control the fit she wants to fly into. It's not fair. She tries so hard to make him happy, make him part of the family, to give him a place. But it's never enough, never enough to keep him here, never enough for him to...love her back.]

it's okay...

[Her voice cracks and she tries again.]

It's not your fault.

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[zealouspeter]

Did he disappear again?

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[meteor_heart]

Yes.

[The fact that that's even a question with someone she loves is like a knife in her heart. She shouldn't have to answer that he's gone missing -again-...there's a twinge of anger somewhere, a tiny spark that's furious with Cloud.]

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[zealouspeter]

I guess it's good to know that the Core can take people back.

[but he'd actually started to like this version of Cloud. how annoying.]

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[meteor_heart]

I suppose.

[She doesn't sound very happy about it.]