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[youcandielater]

[Misato looks less like crap than she should, considering she's been wallowing in her room for the past couple of days ever since the cherry blossom fiasco ended. She doesn't remember A LOT of it, but she knows enough to know that it was disgusting and shameful and everything she's been wanting to do to herself. God, she hates herself right now.

But

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[youcandielater]

Maybe I'm just convincing myself there isn't anything to blame.

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[youcandielater]

[...Not helping.]

Is that supposed to be a joke?

[madeinoblivion]

You're right, about the darkness. It's in every heart, not just outside, after siren.

[youcandielater]

And that's one thing I wish I wasn't right about, but it can't really be helped. People will always be people, after all.

[madeinoblivion]

It's just how we are. We feel dark things- and that's okay.

[youcandielater]

But there was to be a-a sticking point. A point where you know you can stop, no matter what happens.

And that's where it gets complicated.

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[deceptive_lulz]

Run into trouble recently, I take it? Hahaha?

[Sarina pauses for a little bit, rubbing a thumb against her lip as she pondered over the second part of Misato's transmission.]

But there's definitely a little bit of Darkness in most, at least, if not indeed all of us.

[Just like that Beast inside of her that she finally had a handle on...sort of.]

It's a little necessary to survive in a place like this, however.

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[youcandielater]

Trouble always finds me sooner or later.

[She sighs]

I guess to beat the Darkness, you have to understand it, right? And with that understanding comes accepting the darkness in yourself.

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[deceptive_lulz]

[You and her both. Even if this one was doing a surprisingly good job of staying out of it for a while.]

No one's been hassling you or anything, have they? Hahaha?

[Leaning an elbow against the vanity she was sitting at, she leaned her cheek against a hand.]

I used to be afraid of the Darkness, but all in all it's more beneficial if you can conquer it -- heeheehee -- control it.

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[youcandielater]

I've managed to avoid that part and the monsters, which is fine, because I had my fill of that sort of thing before I ever got here.

[She frowns at that.]

That sounds... dangerous.

[bythreadalone]

Iiiii think you might need a nap. Or a break from this place -- maybe a bit of both, along with some tea and a warm blanket.

[ A little nervous 'heh'. ]

My uncle used to say that even at its most difficult, life puts these kinds of hurdles in our way only to make us stronger. To learn to cherish what we already have, and want to hold on to it with everything we've got. It might frustrate you, and it might seem like the world is just -- I don't know, like it's this horrible place where nothing good can happen, but it isn't true. Not really.

Everyone's capable of letting that darkness consume them, but we're also capable of being the light for someone else. Which sounds so, so dumb, but it helps.

[youcandielater]

If only we could leave once in awhile. As for the other three... Probably. It feels like I haven't really done much but sleep for the past few days, though.

[She has to actually smile at that.] Your uncle's a smart man. It feels like I've told someone something like that, myself. I've just never been all that good at following my own advice.

[And the last bit even gets a laugh out of her.] It's not dumb. It's true. People have this habit of walling themselves up and not getting close for fear of hurting others and themselves. They get so caught up in that, they don't realize that risking the pain might be worth it... That being out in the light, even if it burns, might be better than being lonely in the dark.

And no one's ever really safe in the dark. That's why I've never liked it.

[bythreadalone]

Now it just sounds like you need a hug, more than anything.

[ Another little chuckle. ] Thanks. I always thought so, even if a lot of his advice didn't make sense until I hit college -- but that's just how it usually is, isn't it? You don't realize your parents really do know what they're talking about until you stop thinking that you know everything.

Mm. [ He's never had a problem with the dark -- just the things in it. ] Maybe you should try night-vision goggles?

[youcandielater]

[Ouch. You are just hitting all the right buttons, Petey. She puts her hand over her cross necklace instinctively.] Or until they make one unfathomably selfless decision that makes you reevaluate everything you thought you knew about them and their choices.

[Okay, she has to really laugh at that.] I wish things were that simple. [She smiles a bit.] I'm Misato, by the way.

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[topslug]

It's fine! [ Really, she should be the one apologizing for the weird noises coming from her room at odd hours and how often she only seems to meet Misato when she's rushing out the door.

... Having said that, Yako Katsuragi would never be one to turn down an offer for someone else to make food. ] Are you sure you're up to making dinner, though?

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[youcandielater]

Well, I guess when I say make, I mean I plan on ordering something nice- my treat. I've been told my cooking's nearly lethal... Which is an exaggeration, but unless you're all craving instant soup...

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[topslug]

[ Yako laughs. ] Well, it's the thought that counts, but I guess Mr. Lunettes and Mr. Break probably want something that isn't going to burn a hole through their stomachs.

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[youcandielater]

Great. I can't promise it'll be extravagant, but it'll be better than take-out.