number four.

[siren52684]

my fourth resolution this year was to be more emotionally guarded around boys. and not to get too excited and too involved in a short span of time because EVERY single time it happens, i get hurt.

well. i did it again. and i'm all bummed and hurt again.

definitely a resolution i need to work harder on in order to keep.

Comments

[nevershagagreek]

I made that resolution for years, and I've finally decided it's something I can't change. Some people just wear their heart on their sleaves.

Do you think it's possible to change? (I'm not asking that as a know-it-all, I'm really curious as to whether or not you think you can. Cuz like I said, I finally gave up.)

[siren52684]

ya know? i'm really not sure if it's possible to change that.

but i'll be damned if it's not worth a shot. you can only put yourself out there so many times and then you just can't do it anymore.

[likealion]

*hugs*

Well, you can't blame yourself for going for what you want really, right? It's hard to hold back with something like that.

[siren52684]

well. there's a difference between putting yourself out there and beating a dead horse.

....i believe i was in the latter category of things.

[lowaww]

I hate, hate, hate quoting cheesy songs aimed at high schoolers but... I've always followed this:

The only thing that matters is just following your heart and eventually you'll finally get it right.

[siren52684]

holy shit that's an old song. i honestly don't think i've heard "fred astaire" in YEARS...

[lifeofmendel]

*hug*

[siren52684]

danke.

[planetsalign]

Relax and start breathing, learn from your mistakes, and keep your gaurd down always, and become calous.

[siren52684]

that....doesn't make sense.

if i'm keeping my guard down, it's like i'm inviting everyone to come talk about my feelings and shit.

but if i'm being callous, then i'm being insensitive and hardened.

i can do one, but not both.