I want to take that leap
that jump
that chance
that fall
that last regret.

It's amazing how I can be tired of living when I haven't even begun yet.

i hear compliments and i hear praises and i hear everything that doesn't matter to me
i hear how smart i am everyday, i hear how someone would love to be me and make their parents proud, i hear how good your hair looks today, i hear how you're so pretty and how you have almost everything
i hear it and it goes away
i hear how i'm rude and selfish and ( Read more... )

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I'm not sure, I'm sure about anything anymore.

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Confusion has just signed in.

you're not supposed to matter
you do matter

(all the time) I wonder
How the hell did we end up like this
Disappointed, frustrated, unsatisfied
With society, with families,with [pretend] lovers, with life,
with ourselves
Independence-[if-you-can-do-everything-by-yourself-then-don't-come-back-home-to-people-who-don't-need-you-anyways]
Comfort-[bad-habits-die-hard,good-habits-turn-bad]
Happiness-[ ( Read more... )

And I'll confess
That I can be a little selfish
Yeah, I'll admit
I don't want you to help me through this
I don't want to start over again

And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me
And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you
And this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymore
And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me
.

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people are going to disappoint you
i get that, i kind of expect that
but what if you wake up one day and realize you're the disappointment
your emotions are conflicted
contradicted
.
saying one thing, yet doing the other
again and again
your ignorance, my ignorance
disgusts me, disgusts you
'cause sometimes pretending is easier
the truth can be twisted, ( Read more... )