You know, I use the phrase "one of my best friends" fairly often. It occurred to me today, however, that I ought to think about who these people are
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Yep, it's tricky stuff! The last person I love very much, but so much has changed. :(
We've pretty much established we are gonna be friends forever, so I'm not worry he'll disappear completely. I am, however, bothered by the the fact that everytime I see him I see less of him. Does that make sense?
Crazy busy-ness aside, it's like our friendship is a hallway that used to be a castle. So many doors have been shut, and so many passageways now say "Do not enter." I feel I should wait here and cease my pacing, trusting those passages are under renovation, believing that one day they will be re-opened cleaner and bigger and better than before.
But, as the months wear on, it gets harder and harder not to ask, "Why am I waiting here alone?"
It scares me to see myself thinking in such a selfish way. It scares me that if my friend actually reads this, I will have made his sad. :(
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We've pretty much established we are gonna be friends forever, so I'm not worry he'll disappear completely. I am, however, bothered by the the fact that everytime I see him I see less of him. Does that make sense?
Crazy busy-ness aside, it's like our friendship is a hallway that used to be a castle. So many doors have been shut, and so many passageways now say "Do not enter." I feel I should wait here and cease my pacing, trusting those passages are under renovation, believing that one day they will be re-opened cleaner and bigger and better than before.
But, as the months wear on, it gets harder and harder not to ask, "Why am I waiting here alone?"
It scares me to see myself thinking in such a selfish way. It scares me that if my friend actually reads this, I will have made his sad. :(
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