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The air conditioner works just enough so the air is not stale. I breathe and my heart beats. It is unfamiliar, fighting with me, reminding of the passage of time, all that has happened and everything that might be left. There is more time than I can contemplate, but not nearly enough ( Read more... )

This is a good time to write a couple of things. Few of the people I remember here exist or they do not often check posts. I was so active here eight years ago- Younger and self-righteous. I am better now I think. I want to be better ( Read more... )

"Really?," as when used to replace "are you serious?" or "seriously ( Read more... )

BTW I am using twitter again for those about to give a shit- we salute you ( Read more... )

Today has been a very important day.
I am applying to a doctoral program and it looks at least possible I might get in.
We are exploring adopting an older child. Very tentative and in the beginning phases, but so it is.
Colin has learned how to climb- He will climb anything he can get his leg over. He cannot walk.

Being sober at a party full of drinkers has much to teach the willing student. I don't know how I made it out of that pathology; Self-pitying, useless strife, un-channeled anger are some phrases that come to mind. I don't know if I'm completely recovered, if I am yet over myself. I would like to think that I am. I hope for my wife and kid that I ( Read more... )

For i have sinned. it has been a lifetime, only a few seconds since my last transgression, confession ( Read more... )

I was hospitalized last month. It was scary and kind of interesting ( Read more... )

I'm batshit crazy about my kid. He smiles at and reaches for me all the time. I take care of him quite a bit- at least twice a week all by myself while Sara works and then of course other times sort of trading with her ( Read more... )