You totally have made a lot of progress!! I think you've been very level-headed and ambitious about fixing and improving what you've dealt with, and maybe he is jealous of your strength. His opinion on your experience with pain doesn't mean shit when you're the one who has had to deal with your SPECIFIC pain. I think humans can be compassionate but it's hard to really know exactly what a person has gone through, and obviously he's had similar experiences but he is not growing from them like you are, and he is not seeing them in the same light
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Thank you for recognizing and telling me that. :) I know it's true, but it makes me feel good to know that I'm not faking myself and other people see it too like at least you and my family. (I mean shit, if my FATHER thinks I've made progress that has to mean something :)
I can't/don't know why he feels/acts this way. And I try not to bother theorizing. I just have to accept it and move on. And do my best to wish him well despite my lost love, hurt feelings, and rage.
The whole pain competition is interesting. I'm guilty of falling into it myself sometimes. I see it many places.
i think the fact that i finally graduated was one factor in that it was a huge load of stress off of me.
breaking up with my boyfriend was another load removal in that i didn't feel pressured or obligated to give myself/time to anyone unless i wanted to.
the other thing that helped was getting anti-anxiety medication, in my case klonopin.
i wish i could be of more help, i don't know exactly what your situation is and what you have tried.
spending time with friends that i know care about me and are willing to deal/accept with my weirdness/anxiety while i'm with them and while i ignore them for a long time is also helpful. and i'm very lucky for that.
You're an amazing person, having gone through so much and going through so much now. Don't apologize for your anger, it's real and important and if you have to apologize for it that diminishes the truth of it. Write in all caps if you need to. Write poetry if you need to(and it wasn't bad or cheezy).
Do what you need to, because so much of the world is set on making things hard for you.
I don't look down upon junkies or make value judgments about their lifestyle. Nonetheless, I don't appreciate being wrongly accused.
I'm glad that you've found something that works for your pain. I sometimes suspect fibromylagia and intend to look further into that once I have a doctor and/or health insurance.
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I know it's true, but it makes me feel good to know that I'm not faking myself and other people see it too like at least you and my family. (I mean shit, if my FATHER thinks I've made progress that has to mean something :)
I can't/don't know why he feels/acts this way. And I try not to bother theorizing. I just have to accept it and move on. And do my best to wish him well despite my lost love, hurt feelings, and rage.
The whole pain competition is interesting. I'm guilty of falling into it myself sometimes. I see it many places.
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i want to know how you got your motivation back and stopped isolating yourself, because i'm having lots of problems related to those two things.
please don't let a certain idiot mess with your head. you know yourself better than anyone, so therefore you know what's good for you and what helps.
eye in the sky is such a kickass song. i should play it on youtube instead of listening to all the antipodean stuff i'm into lately.
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i think the fact that i finally graduated was one factor in that it was a huge load of stress off of me.
breaking up with my boyfriend was another load removal in that i didn't feel pressured or obligated to give myself/time to anyone unless i wanted to.
the other thing that helped was getting anti-anxiety medication, in my case klonopin.
i wish i could be of more help, i don't know exactly what your situation is and what you have tried.
spending time with friends that i know care about me and are willing to deal/accept with my weirdness/anxiety while i'm with them and while i ignore them for a long time is also helpful. and i'm very lucky for that.
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Do what you need to, because so much of the world is set on making things hard for you.
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I don't look down upon junkies or make value judgments about their lifestyle. Nonetheless, I don't appreciate being wrongly accused.
I'm glad that you've found something that works for your pain. I sometimes suspect fibromylagia and intend to look further into that once I have a doctor and/or health insurance.
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