no i couldn't answer. things have turned a deeper shade of blue imagines that might be real maybe illiusions keep flashing off and on, free got to be free ( Read more... )

i think i honestly believe. i should be dead. a fractured rib cut right eye lid. almost getting fired, working everyday from 11 to 9 and today 1 to 1130pm. every morning going to a dr a hospitol applying for charity care....crying every chance i'm alone. and my family having me under house arrested and not trust me. i really really wish i died ( Read more... )

oct 2nd. i over dosed on herion. i was found in the basememt of my store and rushed to an ambulance were i was brought back to life. i should have died.

it happens. your on an apartment that has a children's size style pink disney theme tv played while you wait for your fellow junkie to pick up the score that your arm itches to have injjected who are you. watch two small dogs wander around and try to hump while your on the phone trying to lose your girl friend who you got back with and had a huge ( Read more... )

7 weeks down the vein ( Read more... )

she isn't 100% sure she had one, she went to the obgyn, said it either was a miscariage or just signs of an ulcer, she missed her peroid etc. i'm not sure what to think, it was just father's day is this sunday and i had that dream with my dad, and stupid me thought wow, what if i was a dad ( Read more... )

i just got off the phone with my ex..
she was pregent...she had a miscariage...why am i so sad......

almost 48 hours clean, heroin is now expensive, my old dealer is apprently in locked accoriding to his wife or gf who picked up his cell. i said i was steve his friend she said oh he's locked up won't be hearing from him in a long time... i read inthe paper the other day about some big bust in jersey city guess one of them was linked to him. the ( Read more... )

i know that last entry scared some of you, i was reckless i am not so much now ( Read more... )

i'm pretty wrecked, had two hits of heroin. it's so strong and good, it's the most highest high i ever felt. i finally got a good connect. This old Black man named ray, so naturally in my cell phone i named him GAMMA RAY like the beck song hehe. the phony friends who where picking up for me, along with themselves fucked me over for the last time, ( Read more... )