it's strange to feel like i'm constantly admiring men and very much so wanting to 'have' a male physique, and yet simultaneously despising them, not understanding them, and not developing sustaining relationships with them, admittedly because it doesn't seem worth it to me (do they have emotional depth?). tonight showed me they do. peter does. ( Read more... )

i'm having trouble sleeping. feeling somewhat consumed by things in general....trip to india coming up in april, how to raise enough money to make it a feasible thing. writing to my ex ( Read more... )

my sex drive is through the roof ( Read more... )

i found some crazily accurate shit about me on astro.com...on love/relationships, etc...since it seems to be on my mind lately ( Read more... )

"is that okay ( Read more... )

Soul receives from soul that knowledge, therefore not by book

nor from tongue.

If knowledge of mysteries come after emptiness of mind, that is

illumination of heart.

Rumi

if someone were to play music,
it would have to be very sweet.
we're drinking wine, but not through lips.
we're sleeping it off, but not in bed.
rub the cup across your forehead.
the day outside is living and dying.

rumi

---, it drives me crazy seeing you at work. all i want to do is give you a hug, have a real conversation, ask you how you are, essentially for things to be as they once were between us -- peaceful. would it be too much to send you an email to ask if you'd like to have coffee with me sometime? would it be best to ask if ---- is okay with it first ( Read more... )

i'm in love with the world ( Read more... )

massage therapy school starts next week ( Read more... )