That is all you ever think anything is! You're always stuck in your happy little world and anyone who isn't must have a stick lodged up their ass. Ever occur to you you might be the one with the stick lodged up their ass?
If you're so pissed off, why don't you come find me. Or are you too worried I might fix that crooked nose of yours, Fair?
[ooc:.... You can always tell they're pissed off at each other when they start using each other's last names. Orz.]
You want to know why I'm always so cheerful? Why I never really complain about things? Why I seem to be in my own little world? Because I'm tired of constantly being in pain. I'm tired of actually having nightmares almost every night. I'm so fucking scared of leaving here with out Aerith and leaving her here. I'm fucking happy, because I've got a second chance, sure the circumstances aren't great, but I have a second chance to spend my time with the one person I fucking love with all my heart.
I'm in my little world because if I wasn't, I'd do nothing, I'd constantly be in a horrible mood. I'd constantly break down and probably go insane from the nightmares and constant, and I mean constant, pain going through me.
[He's silent for a moment, his foot steps stopping. He was half way from the game room to the hallway that contained Zack's room, ready to beat some sense into the other when he words stop him.]
I didn't ask you to protect me Zack. You should have left me there. Then you could gone to Aerith, and none of this would have happened. You'd both still be alive. And you wouldn't have to worry about it being taken away.
[There's a deep, ragged breath, and if he didn't know better, he'd say he was on the verge of tears. Leave it to Zack to be able to make him cry.]
I hate you, Zack. I hate this house, and I hate you for saving me. You're so stupid.
[He leans back against the wall, his head resting against the smooth surface, head turned upwards as the first tears slip out.]
[And that's all he says. It's all he can think of. He's so busy sliding to the floor, praying that no one comes into the hallway and sees him. At least, until the sobs get to painful for him to bear.]
Where are you now when I need you the most?
[ooc: :| I feel so sorry for you, having to deal with broken hearted Cloud. It's not fun.]
[Steps out of his room, avoiding most of the vines hanging around.]
Cause your my best buddy, that's why idiot.
[Hears him clearer in the hallway and follows the sounds. It's more than heartbreaking actually hearing Cloud cry. He has no idea what's happened, but it doesn't matter, Cloud's upset and Zack doesn't like it, wanting to be there for his buddy.]
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[He knows he's doing a bad job of hiding it, and when he hears the foot steps coming towards him, he almost runs. It would have been so much easier to just stand up and run away. Away from the house and way from all of the people in it who still needed him.
Instead he lifts his head for a moment, bright blue eyes meeting Zack's face for a moment, the tears still leaking past his blond lashes, before he moves to bury his face in his knees once more, not wanting Zack to see him.]
[Zack got close enough to see Cloud's cheeks and how they were stained with tears. He felt another stab in his chest. He gets closer and slides down the wall beside Cloud. Slinging an arm around the blonde's shoulders and pulls the younger man closer.]
[Action]mirroredechoNovember 23 2009, 22:52:46 UTC
[Cloud feels himself being pulled into the other man, and for once, doesn't have it in him to fight off the comfort. Instead, he lets his head rest against Zack's chest, the one and only time he's ever allowed himself to do so. The sound of the other's heart beating against his cheek seems to calm the tears slightly. If Zack could be here, alive and well, then that meant there was a chance that she was out there some where too. Some where he could find her.]
[His head rested back against the wall as he closed his eyes. It was nice that Cloud wasn't trying to pull away from him, because he didn't know what else to do. A few minutes ago, they'd been ready to hit each other and now they were on the floor. He ignored the blood and any other cuts Cloud might have, it was obvious he'd been getting frustration out. So instead he just ran his hand through the blonde hair.]
It just shows that you have a lot going on, and that you're unable to deal with it all.
[Action]mirroredechoNovember 23 2009, 23:58:38 UTC
[Cloud took a couple of deep breaths, trying to force the rest of the tears away. He never cried. The last time he had was when.... was when Zack had died. Life was ironic like that sometimes, and the irony wasn't lost on him. He cried when Zack had left him, and he cried now because he had come to him. A bare hand comes out to grip the material of Zack's shirt for a moment, before pressing against his chest. He can feel the small bumps that reside there, scars that were there because of him.]
You're such a stupid.... over grown puppy. [But he knew that he was right, either way.] I'm sorry. For what I said. I didn't mean it.
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That is all you ever think anything is! You're always stuck in your happy little world and anyone who isn't must have a stick lodged up their ass. Ever occur to you you might be the one with the stick lodged up their ass?
If you're so pissed off, why don't you come find me. Or are you too worried I might fix that crooked nose of yours, Fair?
[ooc:.... You can always tell they're pissed off at each other when they start using each other's last names. Orz.]
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I'm in my little world because if I wasn't, I'd do nothing, I'd constantly be in a horrible mood. I'd constantly break down and probably go insane from the nightmares and constant, and I mean constant, pain going through me.
Don't tempt me Strife.
[ooc : :(!!! Poor boys.]
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I didn't ask you to protect me Zack. You should have left me there. Then you could gone to Aerith, and none of this would have happened. You'd both still be alive. And you wouldn't have to worry about it being taken away.
[There's a deep, ragged breath, and if he didn't know better, he'd say he was on the verge of tears. Leave it to Zack to be able to make him cry.]
I hate you, Zack. I hate this house, and I hate you for saving me. You're so stupid.
[He leans back against the wall, his head resting against the smooth surface, head turned upwards as the first tears slip out.]
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You're the idiot. I wasn't about to just let you stay there and be killed by them.
I wouldn't change what happened Cloud.
[ooc : My mind blanked for this, he's sad Cloud's sad :(]
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[And that's all he says. It's all he can think of. He's so busy sliding to the floor, praying that no one comes into the hallway and sees him. At least, until the sobs get to painful for him to bear.]
Where are you now when I need you the most?
[ooc: :| I feel so sorry for you, having to deal with broken hearted Cloud. It's not fun.]
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[Forcing a little smile and gets up.]
[ooc : Is he meaning Zack?]
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[ooc: Pffffttttt, he doesn't know who he means. xD]
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Where are you?
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Why do you care?
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Cause your my best buddy, that's why idiot.
[Hears him clearer in the hallway and follows the sounds. It's more than heartbreaking actually hearing Cloud cry. He has no idea what's happened, but it doesn't matter, Cloud's upset and Zack doesn't like it, wanting to be there for his buddy.]
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Instead he lifts his head for a moment, bright blue eyes meeting Zack's face for a moment, the tears still leaking past his blond lashes, before he moves to bury his face in his knees once more, not wanting Zack to see him.]
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It's not a sign of weakness you know.
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Then what is it?
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It just shows that you have a lot going on, and that you're unable to deal with it all.
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You're such a stupid.... over grown puppy. [But he knew that he was right, either way.] I'm sorry. For what I said. I didn't mean it.
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